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My struggles...


Monday, January 16, 2012

Two years ago I began another weight loss journey.....I lost 50lbs. I felt the best that I had felt in a VERY long time. For the last two years....I have BATTLED to keep the weight off, but it just continued to go back on. Today I have gained all of the 50 lbs back :-( It's very discouraging...but I can say that I never completely gave up. I felt like my body was working very hard to get that weight back. (You may not understand...but I honestly felt like my body was trying to gain). As hard as I tried to keep it off, the more I craved and gave in. Not only that, I got lazy and quit working out regular. Last week I did pretty good on healthy eating, and then the weekend came along. I went out to dinner with my husband on Friday night, then I just spiraled out of control all weekend. Eating things like pizza, chicken fries, cookies and ice cream. I am just being honest. Why can't I stay faithful to myself. For someone who wakes up every morning to the disappointment of my weight being the first thing on my mind....you would think that I could stay faithful :-(

It feels like I've been cursed. But nonetheless....I've got to keep trying. I bought a new workout dvd this weekend. Bob Harpers beginners workout------> It didn't feel like a beginners workout. I honestly cried and prayed while I was working out. I'm not giving up.

I'm sorry for being so negative today....just need a shoulder to cry on. BOOOO....Whaaa

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KELLIGIRL523 1/25/2012 8:48AM

    It's a new year.... a great time for a new start!

I lost and gained back 20 pounds last year. Not good. BUT - I got it back together and I've gotten rid of 8 pounds so far this month! Crazy!

I have this written in dry erase marker on my bathroom mirror:

You have CHOICES! HOW and WHAT you choose will determine your ultimate outcome!

Everything - good or bad - is a choice. How will you choose?

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BAKER1009 1/25/2012 8:34AM

    I'm sorry I didn't see this sooner!
Just hang in there...remember that you are human. It sounds like you could use some support. Our team (Why Can't I Stop Eating) is still very active, and we'd all love to help you on your journey. Maybe you could stop by and check in? Never know, it might be the nudge you need!
Hope you're enjoying that new DVD! I've been slacking on exercise, and every time I try something beginner, I think "Really?!" LOL!
Hang in there, you are worth it!!

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KATRINAWINDHAM 1/23/2012 5:21PM

    Amy, I am so glad you're here venting to us. It's SO hard. I was talking with my husband yesterday about how it seems that our bodies remember our highest weights and just WANT to be back up there again. It's a constant fight and struggle to maintain weightloss. But with support, I know you can regain your healthy lifestyle and begin to feel great about yourself again.
We are here for you, and we're all in this battle together! I've been working out consistently for the past 3 months and have been losing/regaining the same 5 pounds over and over again.
Keep pressing on, and just take small steps. The hardest part is getting back into a routine--once you make small routines, you can add to it--but start small and you'll feel great about the little victories!

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GOODGETNBETR 1/18/2012 7:34AM

    I totally understand that feeling where it's hard to lose but easy to gain what you just lost. Been riding that roller coaster for the last several months but this year going to hold myself more accountable, especially on weekends where I undo most of my efforts. emoticon and don't give up. emoticon

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SAPHRAEL 1/16/2012 11:44AM

    Oh, dear, I'm definitely qualified to commiserate with you!

It's a rare moment when weight loss isn't on my mind. It's so easy to let your guard down and revert to bad habits, isn't it?

I don't know if I agree that it will ever click. Maybe it's because of the New Year, but I've seen alot of sparkers lately coming back and saying they gained what they lost. Maybe the idea of it getting easier is a pipe dream. That said, I'm steeling myself to succeed anyway. I'd love to prove myself wrong and one day be able to say, "I got this!"

We're not there yet, but let's keep trying. What have we got to lose?

You can do it, Amy. Just go back to the drawing board, reset those goals and plan out specific steps you'll take to get there.

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COMMITTEDTOME 1/16/2012 10:58AM

    Keep your chin up, girl! I am right there with you -- regained 50 lbs (plus a few more) that I worked so hard to lose...and am finding it hard to stay focused this time around...
just keep working at it, and finally it will click -- good luck :)

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