Monday, January 16, 2012
Two years ago I began another weight loss journey.....I lost 50lbs. I felt the best that I had felt in a VERY long time. For the last two years....I have BATTLED to keep the weight off, but it just continued to go back on. Today I have gained all of the 50 lbs back :-( It's very discouraging...but I can say that I never completely gave up. I felt like my body was working very hard to get that weight back. (You may not understand...but I honestly felt like my body was trying to gain). As hard as I tried to keep it off, the more I craved and gave in. Not only that, I got lazy and quit working out regular. Last week I did pretty good on healthy eating, and then the weekend came along. I went out to dinner with my husband on Friday night, then I just spiraled out of control all weekend. Eating things like pizza, chicken fries, cookies and ice cream. I am just being honest. Why can't I stay faithful to myself. For someone who wakes up every morning to the disappointment of my weight being the first thing on my mind....you would think that I could stay faithful :-(
It feels like I've been cursed. But nonetheless....I've got to keep trying. I bought a new workout dvd this weekend. Bob Harpers beginners workout------> It didn't feel like a beginners workout. I honestly cried and prayed while I was working out. I'm not giving up.
I'm sorry for being so negative today....just need a shoulder to cry on. BOOOO....Whaaa