Sunday, January 15, 2012
I had a great run at the park today... except for a group of punk teenagers who were hogging the sidewalk... I ran around them and they started laughing at me. I have no clue why since I was minding my own business. I lapped them and then they were like, "hey lady"... I ignored them. I lapped them again and they realized I wasn't going to play... but I am still WTF? The also had apparently been to the Sonic next to the park and left a trail of food trash and waste in their wake.
I have never understood people like this or how any parent who gave a pinch of a crap about their kids could come out with a kid like that.
I have met up with people like this all of my life. And somehow they always picked me out with the intent to victimize. Why would you intentionally try to hurt someone like that? Even though I am an adult, it brings back painful memories and emotions. Luckily, I am able to rise above it on the outside, but on the inside, grade school comes right back to my emotional matrix.
I wasn't fat as a child, but I was always the one picked out to by the popular kids to pick on. I have always been different, but since I have become an adult, it seems that those around me seem better able to just accept me. I get on well with people, but I always feel like I am standing outside looking in, except with my closest friends and immediate family.
I will always be vulnerable I guess.