I must share my DNA test.
Results say that TWO of my DNA markers indicate an increased risk for obesity (duh).
My immediate response was "AHA! I have a plausible excuse right in front of me. Facts are facts. Yay! I can eat with a clear conscience."
Feeling pretty frisky about it, I plugged my weight into an online calculator provided by the DNA testing company, www.23andme.com , where I had been tested, after hearing about it on the Oprah show.
The calculator would tell me how many of my extra pounds I could blame on my DNA. I was excited. Some people do have more difficulty than others with weight loss and maintenance. We all know that. I would no longer have to worry so much about every little pound and feel so much guilt. Yay!
Then, the answer appeared. It was 9 lbs.
WHAT?!!! 9 lbs?!! That's ALL? You've got to be kidding. The rest is ME and what I do or don't do? My ancestors made me overweight, and I took it and ran with it all the way to "morbid obesity"? Well, I didn't exactly "run". I "escalated".
That really makes me laugh. The cold hard facts have eliminated yet another of my excuses.
I have been "missing in inaction" for a couple of months, telling myself "it was OCD and overkill burnout fatigue" that kept me from tracking, blogging, weighing, checking in at SP, etc. Any old port in the storm would help me justify my behavior.
I certainly couldn''t blame much on my DNA, despite being "at risk" for obesity.
It's only funny as it applies to me and my puny 9-lb affliction. It's a more serious matter for some, who have to work much harder than I do, to get weight into a healthy range and keep it there. And yet, they have the courage and will to keep going. They CARE about their day-to-day progress enough to keep at it, and I applaud their efforts. That's what I want to do, too.
I read a great blog today that puts together several links about obesity and whether or not we are trapped into staying fatter than we would like to be. It discusses why so few can maintain a weight loss. It includes more cold hard scientific facts about the difficulties we all face and how people are coping,
Here's a link to it.
After reading the blog, including each link that it provides, I have concluded that "I am not fat-trapped and that it is what it is". I have learned some non-productive behaviors that can be replaced in time, with continued practice and growth. I want to make the work needed to control my weight more routine, by just happily "doing it", with the knowledge and gratitude that it's not really as hard for me as it could be..
Since my weight loss attempts are just 9 lbs harder than the average, I'll just have to find my "9-lb hammer". It's HAMMER TIME!
I tracked my food yesterday. Brag, Brag! I fixed the broken connection between my Withings scale and SparkPeople Ticker and weighed in this morning. I wrote this blog. I changed my Friend Feed Status and read some blogs. I chatted with some friends. I feel good again. It's so easy to forget that I feel so much happier about myself when I am working on my problems, instead of trying to avoid even thinking about them.