Saturday, January 14, 2012
The year of 2011 was the most trying year for me as my youngest daughter was diagnosed with a rare brain disease which required two surgeries within four months of each other.
On top of that, I was trying to care for a very difficult and unreasonable family member who gave me no support during this difficult time. Dealing with this person was actually worse than going through this difficult time with my daughter!
Needless to say, all of my energy and time went into helping everyone which left me physically and mentally drained until finally I just shut it all down...even Spark People! I must have been totally gone!
I've decided it's time to get back up and live again!
My daughter is doing much better, and I've decided life is to short to keep feeding into toxic people!
I really missed reading all the inspirational blogs, and being part of the spark teams. I didn't realize how much support I had here until I left.
I've learned a few things while I was away:
Life is always going to bring challenges and setbacks, but I'm learning it's okay to put one's self first.
i don't have to be everything to everybody, but I do have to take care of me!
I don't have to give an answer the first time someone ask something of me. i can say "I'll let you know later."
I don't have to answer my phone every time you call or explain why I did not answer the phone!
I've decided this year, I'm not caving in to crazy, unreasonable demands!
I've decided I'm not holding my true feelings inside while others feel they can say anything they want even if it's cruel! I do have a voice!
I've learned to pick my battles. Some things are just not worth responding to. Save your energy and your emotions!
Guilt is a waste of time! Learn from your mistakes and move on!
The most important lesson I've learned is, take time for you!