Ok, for some of you this is Friday the 13th
Well I've never let stuff like that bother me. I believe your future is already laid out. God knows everything and yes we all have a little bad luck from time to time but it's just another season and GOD will see us through that too.
Well for me today is my 2nd year Sparkiversary!
My first year was great, I was excited, learning so much, LOVING the site and all the people.
I went from 238lbs. to 190lbs. I learned a lot and finally started to love myself which was great.
This year I haven't done a lot on the scale but I have STARTED not only to love myself but to actually enjoy my life. I LIVE my life not just for my family and friends, which I discovered that I was doing. I have gained weight but in gaining the weight I realized why. I was doing for everyone and not dealing with what I NEEDED! So while shutting myself off from my wonderful spark friends and family that truly care I gained about 10 pounds and was starting to get ashamed of myself but you know what..."I'm NOT ASHAMED!" Yes I gained some weight! Yes I put my needs off AGAIN but I have come to a whole new place in my journey and I'm getting myself back on track. Even though the
went up, my clothes didn't. Yes some of the stuff I was wearing is Not as flattering now with the extra pounds but hey I'm still in them and I've seen worse
I gained some weight, it's NOT the end of the world and definitely NOT the end of my journey.
So going into year 3, I would really love to learn more about myself. More about balance. Get into some size 10's and LOVE to get into single digits. But I am NOT going to focus on the scale and let it bring me down. It will not define me! I will get to my goal one of these years and if it's this year Trust me YOU WILL ALL KNOW!
But for now, I AM HAPPY, I AM PROUD of myself. I could have GAVE UP but I didn't. I have had my SEASON and with the grace of GOD he has seen me through another one. It's still not over and we are still dealing with a few issues but MY GOD can handle anything!
Just a little reminder of the last 2 years...
It was very hard to find me in a picture, then I realized I needed help. I can not do this on my own.
and who likes those random pics. where you get caught in the background.
I'm in the black and white....
That's me in the red shirt w/the black jacket.
2 years ago I would have been ready to CRY!
but I didn't. I even thought these are NOT too bad.
I don't see rolls poking out
Oh and BTW these are from this Christmas when I gained the 10+ pounds.
This was taken in March of 2011 after a 5k, yes my hair is a mess but I'm wearing a Large and the one 2 years before I was wearing a 2X and of course I can't find a pic.
I should have been proud that I walked it but I didn't care enough to get a picture. Never Again!
Like my status said a few days ago....Let's DO this!