Day 12 out of 365- Lost in Thought
Friday, January 13, 2012
it is day 12 and I guess I am not sure how I should feel right now. It is the night before my second weigh-in and boy am I nervous. :T I'm not sure why. I guess because I don't want to fail... Failing is not an option here. I have been saying time and time again that I either do this or I don't. And I am doing this. I've done everything that is required of me to lose weight. I watched what I ate. Drank all of my water. Exercised. But is that enough? I guess well find out tomorrow...
This is the scariest thing I have ever done, as well as the hardest. I don't think I have ever wanted to succeed as much as I do now. It is so hard to convince myself that eventually I will start to see some changes. I mean for Pete's sakes, it is only the second week. This takes time.
You know, before we know it it is going to be February. My birthday is right around the corner. It is a little premature, but my goal for the month is to lose fifteen pounds, and as a reward I have talked about getting my eyebrows waxed. Well, I also want to get my hair done. Like color, highlights, and trim done. I call it my birthday hair, but I also want to do this for how far I have come on this journey already; losing fifteen pounds would be the icing on the cake. So I look forward to doing that, as well as shopping for a birthday outfit. I already made my hair appointment for next Friday, which I why I said it might be a little premature to get my hair done and wax my eyebrows, as well as going shopping, because I have no clue if I will lose fifteen pounds this month. But I can't help it.
Perhaps, I am going a little overboard, but I am excited. I am going to be twenty. Twenty! No more being a teenager. Nope, now I am going to be an older young woman. Haha, you know what I mean. xP This is so crazy. My birthday is on the 28th of this month and I am really excited. I can't wait to have my birthday dinner and spend time with my family. I guess it is just the getting there. I am no rush, but I just want to lose this weight! I am so ready for it to be gone but it is not budging. Ugh, at least not yet. I know it will, but man, who knew how crazy this could drive someone. No worries, January 28th is coming regardless of if I stick to eating right and doing what I am doing, so I plan on continuing this. I have no reason to stop and I don't plan to.
I have already taken the first step and now I just need to keep stepping with one foot in front of the other. Now I just need to get past the first part of all of this. Like, getting past the first month. I mean it is pretty much, almost, the middle of January. This will get better. I will start to lose more weight, and everything is going to be just fine. One day at time, that's all. :] One day at a time.