Yes, I know I barely ran half a dozen times in 2011. Yes, I know I've put weight back on. But why, knowing I'm training for a race I truly want to do and want to do well, knowing I want my body back and have been working at eating and drinking better for it, WHY IS IT SO HARD to get my butt out the door and run? Why did I flub off my cross-training yesterday? Why is a 3 mile run - once a little jaunt 'round the block for me - so daunting all of a sudden?

I planned out a training schedule. It includes a well-balanced running plan and a well-balanced strength training plan. It takes into account the fact that I'm not going to be able to just start out at my old levels. It started early enough that I could get into the swing of it before going into a 20 unit Student Teaching semester.

Yet, I'm still dilly-dallying, waffling, hemming and hawing. I'm still taking half an hour to get dressed for it. I'm still blogging rather than putting my running shoes on. Urrgh.