Wednesday, January 11, 2012
There is nothing out of the ordinary about this week, or the next, but the stress is still getting me down. I work full time, am trying to prepare for this language test - it'll be over in two weeks, no matter what - and take a driving lesson every week. I have not been taking much joy in anything recently, and that's not right when I have a healthy, nice family. I feel like I am bouncing from thing to thing, and always worrying about some snafu at work or about the future. My kid deserves better from me.
I have been getting enough sleep, which is a plus, and have also started taking a Magnesium supplement to see whether it will help any. Food and exercise have been pretty easy - no out of the ordinary cravings, easy to stick to my range. I seem to still be losing, but slower. I hope the weight will stabilize soon.
I really do love my Zumba dvds. They definitely help me destress, even if the effect doesn't last the whole evening. It's just nice to be dancing (to have permission to dance, 'cause it's exercise!), and the kid enjoys it as well.
A word about my driving lessons: I never thought I would learn to drive, had less than zero interest when I was 18. I'm quite anxious, and was always worried I would not react well in traffic. Learning at 36, I still dread every single lesson, but have managed more than I thought I would. I still can't picture that I'll ever actually like it, but decided I should learn. We've been lucky to live in places with great public transport, and still do, but what happens if we have to move elsewhere and my husband has other obligations? Will I be stuck at home? So I grit my teeth before every lesson and sweat quite profusely during it, hoping it will, it must, get easier and less overwhelming.