Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Well, here I am, on my last day of work in a "real" office, ready to make the transition to working from home. How God has blessed over the past 6 weeks as I submitted the proposal to my employer. Initially it wasn't even going to be considered. Then my boss scheduled a meeting with HR, after which I was told it's a real possibility, but not for another year. Then discussions with the executive level started, and before I knew it, the proposal was accepted and they wanted it to begin ASAP! I even discussed the need to re-locate and asked if I could still keep my job then, and the answer was YES, with no restrictions as to where.
WOW! Throughout the process it has been like participating, but being fully aware it is God who is in control of the affairs of men. I am so blessed in His provision! But...
That big BUT leads me to my topic of propensity. Despite these obvious blessings (which it has helped me to rehearse again), my propensity is to worry, whine and wonder if everything will work out. The alliteration is unintentional, but effective, don't you think? Anyway, rather than LOOK at how God has moved already, and draw the conclusion "Hey, if He brought me this far, He will take me the rest of the way", I'm feeling depressed and worried, the weight of the world is on my shoulders.
Oh God, realign me with your laser focus! You were God six weeks ago, and you are still God Almighty. Please take these burdens... the burdens of setting up a new office, sorting and packing my house, getting it ready to sell, trying to reassure a little boy that our new home, wherever we land, will be a good place for him, finding that new location, renting storage unit, getting moved, etc etc, I am just me. I can't do this alone. And you are just YOU, I can trust you! Help me in my unbelief.