Tuesday, January 10, 2012
I'm so frustrated right now!!!! I do, just feel like throwing in the towel!!!!! (I'm not... but that's how I feel). I just can't believe it... I just can't!
I decided to weigh myself this morning... trying to keep myself accountable for the 5 days I took off due to my horrible toothache which had me pretty well laid up in bed. I knew that I would have gained a little bit back... NOT ALL OF IT!!!!! WTF!?!?!?!
So... I step on the scale...and there it is... 204... just sitting there laughing at me! I cannot believe this! I'm so angry!!! All this work... sure, I took off for about a week due to "illness"... don't know what else you'd call it. I didn't keep track of my food intake during that time, because I could hardly eat anything at all anyways... I mean, soup, yogurt, applesauce... a banana... that's pretty much it! I didn't get any physical activity that whole time... but surely that's not what caused this weight to come back like this!?!?! (Is it???)
I feel like such a failure... I mean, what's the point, if every time I turn around I'm gaining the weight right back! There's got to be something that will help me get over this hump! I really thought that by this week, I'd be UNDER 200lbs! NOT right back were we started from (pretty much)!!!!
Boy, they weren't kidding when they said it's much harder to lose weight after you turn 30!(I'm 36). I'm so frustrated... I really do feel like throwing in the towel... but I'm going to do everything I possibly can to resist the urge to destroy myself...
Once the kids are gone to school (and hopefully the hubby has work today)... I'm going to do some speed cleaning, step on the treadmill for about half an hour, do some step ups and maybe a little bit of Zumba. You know... it's early enough (5:40am) & no one is awake.... maybe I'll start the day with a bit of yoga. Better go, so I can get started.
(Trying to keep my chin up!)