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Feeling Like Throwing in the Towel - UGH!!!!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

I'm so frustrated right now!!!! I do, just feel like throwing in the towel!!!!! (I'm not... but that's how I feel). I just can't believe it... I just can't!

I decided to weigh myself this morning... trying to keep myself accountable for the 5 days I took off due to my horrible toothache which had me pretty well laid up in bed. I knew that I would have gained a little bit back... NOT ALL OF IT!!!!! WTF!?!?!?!

So... I step on the scale...and there it is... 204... just sitting there laughing at me! I cannot believe this! I'm so angry!!! All this work... sure, I took off for about a week due to "illness"... don't know what else you'd call it. I didn't keep track of my food intake during that time, because I could hardly eat anything at all anyways... I mean, soup, yogurt, applesauce... a banana... that's pretty much it! I didn't get any physical activity that whole time... but surely that's not what caused this weight to come back like this!?!?! (Is it???)

I feel like such a failure... I mean, what's the point, if every time I turn around I'm gaining the weight right back! There's got to be something that will help me get over this hump! I really thought that by this week, I'd be UNDER 200lbs! NOT right back were we started from (pretty much)!!!!

Boy, they weren't kidding when they said it's much harder to lose weight after you turn 30!(I'm 36). I'm so frustrated... I really do feel like throwing in the towel... but I'm going to do everything I possibly can to resist the urge to destroy myself...

Once the kids are gone to school (and hopefully the hubby has work today)... I'm going to do some speed cleaning, step on the treadmill for about half an hour, do some step ups and maybe a little bit of Zumba. You know... it's early enough (5:40am) & no one is awake.... maybe I'll start the day with a bit of yoga. Better go, so I can get started.

(Trying to keep my chin up!) emoticon
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    Keep your chin up...you'll be back on track in no time; and you started off the day right too, with yoga!
    2261 days ago
    Are you tracking inches also? If not try tracking them, less frustration than the scale.
    2261 days ago
  • SBEAR5
    I agree, could be water weight. You'll get back on track and it will come off! I know it's frustrating, and I am sorry. Stick with it girl! :)
    2261 days ago
    I would say three things. One, if you haven't been able to eat much, it's possible your body is simply retaining food calories as a preventative measure, which bodies do. If I eat less than 1400 calories on a regular basis, I start gaining weight. It's ridiculous and frustrating, but I simply cannot lose fast. Two, I started tracking my sick foods once, and because so many of them are high in sugar (even fruit sugar), I found that I actually went over calories more easily on days when I couldn't eat much, just from the gatorade and bananas and such. Three, if you've been really sick, your body is going to retain a LOT of water. Pounds of it. Drink, drink, drink, and in a few days, that weight will come off again. Don't throw in the towel. I'm in my 30s too, will be 33 in about six weeks, and yes it can be hard to lose, but you just have to learn to accomodate your body. Learn what your body needs and how it needs to lose. Just keep trying.
    2261 days ago
  • DISP715
    Drink enough water to drown a camel! It's water darling, no way, if you stayed within calories, you gained it all back. Life happens and you need to cut yourself some slack. Hang in Girlfriend. You know what you have to do. HUGS!
    2262 days ago
    Don't give up!!! It could be water weight. It could be a lot of things. My weight fluctuates depending on where I'm at in my cycle. No towel throwing EVER!! ;-)

    Losing weight at any age is hard and the older you get, it does seem to get harder. Take advantage of your age... you're ONLY 30. LOL. I'm ... not. :-/

    You sound determined & that is a WONDERFUL asset. You can do this. You will do this! Good luck & remember - no towel throwing. :-)
    2262 days ago
    some of that is water weight, if you keep doing the right thing you will lose weight. Be honest with yourself though... are you tracking everything?? Hang in there. emoticon
    2262 days ago
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