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My relationship to the scale ( thanks Michelene for making me think again:)


Sunday, January 08, 2012

My bestie sparkpal Michelene blogged the other day about how we love to hate the scale, this got me thinking. What is my earliest memory of the scale????? I was 8 or 9 and my mom took me for my annual exam at the pediatricians office he mentioned that I was about6 lbs ovewrweight, my mom put me on a diet that summer, I lost 5 pounds. I have included a picture from that summer. that is me on the far left. I hated that scale, because that scale was the enemy. Depending on what that scale said determined what I could eat and how proud my mom was of me.

My next scale memories are my least favorite. during my high school years my mom would put me on the scale and proceed to tell my father and sister if I gained weight, bear in mind I started high school at 97lbs. and ended at 118lbs. I also went from an A cup to a C cup. My mom told me constantly how "chuncky " I was. I hated that scale it became the measurement of my worth. Pic of Senior prom included sorry my eyes are closed


When I moved out of my parents place and into a dorm, I did not take a scale with me. That last thing I wanted to do was weigh in. Over time I did start to gain weight by the time I was pregnant with my son I weighed 151lb. my mom suggested I diet before my wedding. I looked at her like she was nuts, I was 2 mo. . pregnant , I couldn't diet now. she said " it won't hurt anything" . She did not go dress shopping with me, I took a friend who was the best and helped me find a dress that I liked.

Now over the years i have gained and lost alot of weight. And the scale can still make or break my whole day. Sometimes I avoid it for months, who needs the disappointment, some times I weigh my self 3 times a day, even at night so I can guess if I will weigh less tommorow morning. This relationship is not healthy. As I pull up my big girl panties and try to start being healthy again, I realized that I need a new way to measure my success. So I am limiting my self to weighing in just once a week, On Sunday. I am also going to measure myself and use this as a gauge. I will measure how I feel, and If I made good choices that day. That will be my scale. I am more than a number on a scale.

looking for a better standard, Julie.
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JESUS.SAVED.ME 1/9/2012 1:57PM

    Yikes, I'm really sorry you had to deal with all that. Just yesterday I forced my daughter to weigh in on Wii Fit. She was so mad at me. But we hadn't weighed her in a year and I think it's important to know what you weigh. She had gained, but she also grew. I don't think I'll make her weigh in anymore. I know it makes her feel bad even though we talked afterwards and I told her I'm not upset about her weight at all. She seemed to get over it, but I don't know how it will affect her long term. I'll just focus on our eating and activity level and how her clothes fit her. Maybe she'll notice her jeans are loose and want to see how much she lost, but I won't push the issue. I'm glad you shared this with us, it can help stop the cycle in other families, even if it couldn't in your own. emoticon

I love your background btw. I'm on the We Love Edward team and it's very inactive now. I'd love to get it going again.

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RUNNER4LIFE08 1/9/2012 11:04AM

    Sorry you had to grow up like that. Sometimes I think parents think they are doing the right things but it will only hurt us later in life.

I think you have a great plan to not let that scale rule you. Once a week is just enough. Good luck as you let go of that dreaded scale and look forward with new eyes on how you are really doing. Go by how you are feeling, how your clothes are fitting, etc... You can do this!!!!

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