d? No, I still want it...so what's wrong?
Sunday, January 08, 2012
I'm having a conflict.
Well, no. Yes. maybe. See what I mean?
I don't know which way is left, right, down, up....they all just kindof blend together.
So this isn't me being depressed or anything. Actually, things really couldn't be better right now! I started my FABULOUS internship at the best museum ever, and I'm loving it! My final paper from this past semester was accepted to an annual Art History symposium in March, and I know I will ROCK that presentation! I'm actually making some headway on this art history thing!
So why am I eating so much? EVERY DAY I wake up and tell myself "ok, today you're going to NOT eat sweets or donuts or whatever," and EVERY DAY I end up doing it anyway! I eat too much dinner after being PERFECT all day, or I sneak a donut in when I go grocery shopping and then nom it in the car in the parking lot. Ugh....
I'm not sure what's wrong with me. I'm even exercising regularly with this "January Jumpstart Challenge" thing! I've done the videos every day so far, even though I haven't been able to get the walking in every day, but I feel accomplished in this area.
The frustrating thing is I know I'd be progressing with the re-shaping of the physical me if I could just get my eating under control. So why can't I? I know how to cook! I have fruits and veggies and delicious protein shakes in my fridge....so what is it about the second half of the day that makes this hurdle so impossible to conquer?
I read YOOVIE's blog entry "Pipe Cleaner Plan" today, and I tried to absorb as much of her "go and get it gurl" attitude that I could...but I'm afraid it won't last into tomorrow night.
I will keep pushing forward. I start again every day....but failing every day is really eating away at my motivation.