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Sunday, January 08, 2012

I'm having a conflict.

Well, no. Yes. maybe. See what I mean? emoticon

I don't know which way is left, right, down, up....they all just kindof blend together. emoticon

So this isn't me being depressed or anything. Actually, things really couldn't be better right now! I started my FABULOUS internship at the best museum ever, and I'm loving it! My final paper from this past semester was accepted to an annual Art History symposium in March, and I know I will ROCK that presentation! I'm actually making some headway on this art history thing!

So why am I eating so much? EVERY DAY I wake up and tell myself "ok, today you're going to NOT eat sweets or donuts or whatever," and EVERY DAY I end up doing it anyway! I eat too much dinner after being PERFECT all day, or I sneak a donut in when I go grocery shopping and then nom it in the car in the parking lot. Ugh....

I'm not sure what's wrong with me. I'm even exercising regularly with this "January Jumpstart Challenge" thing! I've done the videos every day so far, even though I haven't been able to get the walking in every day, but I feel accomplished in this area.

The frustrating thing is I know I'd be progressing with the re-shaping of the physical me if I could just get my eating under control. So why can't I? I know how to cook! I have fruits and veggies and delicious protein shakes in my what is it about the second half of the day that makes this hurdle so impossible to conquer?

I read YOOVIE's blog entry "Pipe Cleaner Plan" today, and I tried to absorb as much of her "go and get it gurl" attitude that I could...but I'm afraid it won't last into tomorrow night.

I will keep pushing forward. I start again every day....but failing every day is really eating away at my motivation.

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    try this,,,do it an HOUR at a time. for this hour i will not eat donuts
    then when that one is done, go for the next.
    and i will too. cuz i've not been so good myself.
    2261 days ago
    Are you eating enough during the day? If you aren't eating enough during the day, that might be why you are over eating at dinner. Why don't you just give yourself permission to have one treat a day? I am in the camp that says if you deprive yourself of everything you love, you are just sabotaging yourself.
    One thing that helps for me is that nearly 3/4 of my dinner is veggies! Seriously...and I always enjoy my dinner and fill up.
    Try not to be so hard on yourself. You are doing great with the exercise, just relax and you will get the nutrition thing down.
    2261 days ago
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