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I don't....and I do

Saturday, January 07, 2012

So.

I had a weird dream last night, prompting this blog. I dreamed I was looking down the length of a zip-line, scared to go on. Most of my friends had gone across. On the other side was a Chinese restaurant (I wondered in my head if they'd serve healthy food). 2 girls stayed around, and we walked to the other side and ordered lunch. At this point I wished I had rode the zip-line as it didn't seem so scary on the other side. All of my other friends had taken off by this point, and didn't wait for me and the other 2 girls to order or finish lunch. I thought to myself- in the past I would have gone home and filled the feelings left by my friends leaving me behind and my not accomplishing the zip-line up with food. Today I won't, as I made 2 new friends and won't let my emotions dictate my overeating. Woah. In a dream. Go me! (Even though it was just in a dream).

I believe this dream was prompted by a Sparkfriend's blog and this part of our Sparkpages, that allows us to see who we've friended and who hasn't friended us back, vice versa, and who our mutual friends are....that I looked at just before bedtime.

http://www.sparkpeople.com/f
riend_lookup.asp

Which leads to a little information about me in case you're wondering who I am:

I DON'T: have kids
I DON'T: have a mommy tummy (see #1)
I DON'T: want to give up on myself again
I DON'T: have a husband (one day I hope!)
I DON'T: like wishy-washy excuses/justifications....from myself. 1 justification snowballs into 10, I know this about myself. From others? It currently annoys me, but to each their own. They may not be ready to make the change. It probably also annoys me because this is an area I struggle with- food justifications.
I DON'T: care if you are religious or not, as long as you don't care about my religious or non-religious tendencies.
I DON'T: care if you are vegan, practicing a raw food diet, etc or are a meat eater. I can learn from everyone.
I DON'T: eat many prepackaged foods. Very few frozen dinners, prepackaged cookies, etc.
I DON'T: keep my binge foods in the house. I don't keep them at work. I try not to keep trigger foods around either. For example, if I were to make a delicious chocolate cake there'd be a chance I would eat 3 pieces a day every day until it was gone. And that would be on top of my normal healthy foods. And then I'd probably feel guilty and then cue an extended binge of 10000000's of calories. Ditto for chips or other delicious baked goods. If I only had 1 piece of a delicious cake, I'd be ok. I may even be able to cut it in two, and eat it over 2 days. Ditto 2 or 3 small pieces. I wouldn't feel guilty about eating 1 a day for 3 days. I'm weird, I know.


I DO: care that we share the same getting healthy goals, and are making a lifestyle change; creating a new normal.
I DO: wonder about people who track a 500-1100 calorie intake a day on here. Are they tracking everything? How do they feel? Can they maintain? These are some of the questions that roll through my head as I check out trackers with fascination. I've just started noticing food trackers as I've just started posting mine on here.
It's also a source of food ideas and fascination to me on how people manage to incorporate sweets and treats into their daily lives, or what they eat to maintain. I think it helps me.
I DO: provide as much support as I can on here to my Sparklyfriends
I DO: try to respond to all blog comments, etc, and I do feel a little bad if I forget some
I DO: have a pear shape
I DO: worry about how my legs will look when I get closer to my goal, as they are larger (see previous point). All the bootcamps and boxercises are making them smaller, but still. loose skin in my future?
I DO: worry about maintenance, so I'm trying to set up the best supports and have a maintainable plan in place.
I DO: usually lose about 1-3 lbs a week.
I DO: have issues with binging. We're not talking overeating, although that can happen as well. I am human (is that a justification to overeat? Or just a mere statement that it can happen. hmm. Well, it's not like I'm a plant, I am a human. I digress). I'm talking about binging. (see the DON'T point on binging)
I DO: eat meat.
I DO: wish to eat as cleanly as possible, as I find I feel better with fewer processed/prepackaged foods in me.
I DO: cook/bake most foods myself. Homemade. Also easy to track that way.
I DO: believe that what we eat counts for a big part of our weight loss. I know it's true because I could outeat any good effects from the gym any day I'm not cognizant. What's the caloric difference between losing, maintaining or gaining? Not that much.
I DO: like a little competition when it comes to fitness. It motivates me at the gym.
I DO: enjoy working out. At the gym. With weights. And Bootcamps and boxercises. Rawr! My muscles are slowly building under the fat.
I DO: believe in keeping up with it at the gym, even if it seems hard. I promise you, it will get easier. I don't mean easy, I just mean: you will be more coordinated, find the plyometrics easier to handle, your speed will increase, your weights will get heavier. It may take weeks or months, but you will get a sense of power and accomplishment that is hard to describe.
I DO: know that if I started at the gym with 100 lbs to lose, and even started bootcamps then, so you can too. I applied this concept to running not that long ago when I saw that others were running on Sparkpeople at my weight or heavier. I'm like- gah! foiled by my own logic, so I've taken up running in hopes to outrun the zombies. I mean, in hopes of becoming a runner.
I DO: respect that not everyone can afford a gym membership or find it appropriate for their life. I'm awed by people who go out and run a 5K or a marathon. All before lunch. !
I DO: appreciate each and every one of my Sparklyfriends on here. You have no idea! The support you show me I only hope I return to you :)

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  • v REEBADABEEBOOS
    I love this blog! And I do love you as a Sparklyfriend of mine as well!
    1570 days ago
  • v GIRLONFIRE1979
    I love this blog!!!!!!!!!!!
    1646 days ago
  • v MLCLARKE22
    love this!!
    1650 days ago
  • v MLCLARKE22
    Loved this!!

    1650 days ago
  • v SNOWANGELDIVA
    I DO enjoy reading your blogs. You make me gigle how you formulate the journey's challenges in an entertaining way.

    I hafta kep all trigger stuff out of the house. I've been known to 'accidently' trip people bearing them as they try to enter my humble abod with them.

    Go me!
    1652 days ago
  • v TEENY_BIKINI
    You are just fabulous! I DO love this blog ;)

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    1658 days ago
  • v DEBJAE
    Woo Hooo, you totally rock! RAWR!!

    I believe you have more muscle than you think due to how active you are and all the workouts you put in.

    You are such an inspiration-you are one of my friends on here that ALWAYS gives feedback, support and input that I truly appreciate! THANK YOU!

    We are a lot alike in out do's & don'ts...no wonder I like you so much! emoticon


    1658 days ago
  • v RASCALRACCOON
    I loved this - lol seems like we have quite a bit in common... competitive streaks and bootcamp attendance included :)
    I love trying to work out quirky dreams - makes you wonder just how that little ole brain up there works! :)
    1658 days ago
  • v GERMANIRISHGIRL
    Great blog!

    I am having fun mastering maintenance. I find it to be natural and uncomplicated. And I love my Joey Pouch too! emoticon


    Spark on!


    1658 days ago
  • v CAZANN2
    I love reading your blogs, there are points in this one that I could really relate to (no cake or chips in the house !!) Thanks for allowing us to know you better, great job on losing 1-3lbs a week...Rawr !!

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    1658 days ago
  • v ADEWYN
    RAWR Girlfriend Rawr!!! I DO understand... to us !! keep it up!! small changes equal big changes in the long run!
    1658 days ago
  • v POOKASLUAGH
    I *wish* I didn't have a mommy tummy! Just one of the reasons I really, really hated pregnancy. All three times. :D

    I love that you were making good choices even in your dreams! :D
    1659 days ago
  • v WINNIE1978
    I'm glad that you seem to have such a clear picture of what works for you and what doesn't. It's nice to get to know you a bit better! Thanks for being a great spark friend! emoticon
    1659 days ago
  • v MUSICALLYMINDED
    I do have a mommy tummy and I don't have any kids! I have a big ole belly and birthing hips to go with it though! LOL...and nope I'm not planning on kids either, so I guess I have these things for no purpose. I guess you never know.

    What kind of bootcamp stuff goes on at your gym? That part scares me. I imagine you yelling "RAWR" while jumping on one foot with a 60 pound kettlebell. (I guess that's from the plyometrics comment)

    OK, now I know a little more about you, ADVENTURESEEKER. Way to go on your losses. And you lose about 1 to 3 pounds every week? I'm very jealous. My weight loss is very weird. I'll lose 3-4 pounds one week and then hold steady or gain a little over the next 2-3 weeks until my next big loss.

    I also wonder about those people who only track 500 calories ...I think they only track a couple of meals because otherwise they are starving themselves! I suppose that happens a lot at the beginning of the year...but then those people end up giving up by February. It's sad, really. If they'd eat a little bit healthier and put in a tiny bit of exercise they could get results and keep going as well.



    1659 days ago
  • v HDHAWK
    You know what works for you and that's what counts! Congrats on all you've accomplished.
    1659 days ago
  • v GETSTRONGRRR
    Very nicely said young Jedi! Let us know how the running goes! I'm a big fan of the Run/Walk method. Look up Jeff Galloway's book called....Running!

    And you do return all the support....in spades!
    1659 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/7/2012 7:15:58 PM
  • v CHRISKENANDKIDS
    GREAT blog! Good to get to know about you better! :)
    1659 days ago
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