Friday, January 06, 2012
I know now, more than ever, that it sometimes takes, a deep look inside to realize that it's easy to find an excuse. I thought I had learned that lesson, and could recognize the problem when it presented itself. But, I fell into that trap again. It's so easy to find whys to explain away one's mistakes. But, the truth is, you don't feel good, or whole, if you allow yourself to believe those inexcusable words of failure. 'Excuses are the tools with which persons with no purpose in view build for themselves great monuments of nothing.' ~Steven Grayhm; I seemed to have forgotten that, and gave myself permission to feel sorry for myself, and to give into bad choices. The choice to eat out of my calorie count, or skip workouts, and yes there were often mitigating circumstances, but there is always a solution to a tough problem if you want to find it badly enough.
I look deeply inside and see a person who has always prefered avoidance, as a way to solve difficult situations, I bury my true feelings in order to protect myself from disappointment or hurt, or to keep others from the same. I understand that, and know that 2011 tested me, time and time again, and I got knocked down a little bit, and yes, I faltered, but I've landed on my feet again, and have turned, once again, to SP as my safety.
I started logging-in and joined a challenge, (and as usual, I've received so much support from the many good Spark People) I've made arrangements with my sweet husband to stay with the babies, so I could get to the gym-and I made it there 4 days doing strength 3 days, spin 3 day, and a treadmill workout on Tuesday night.SP allows me to see the obstacles that other people are faced with, and how they are overcoming things that I could never imagine. So, I see that things for me, are not as bleak, as I had allowed myself to think....time to make a choice to appreciate what is good in my life, and put the rest in perspective...thank you Spark Friends.
Over the next year (and beyond) I look forward to not only achieving my own goals, but also, in helping others who are struggling to reach their own!
My W-Th-F are consumed with taking care of my grandsons, so I may not always post/track here, but be assured I will return, when time allows.