Pushing through it.
Friday, January 06, 2012
This morning I woke up feeling awful.
I had a HORRIBLE migraine. It felt like someone was trying to crack my skull open like a walnut. From the top of my head down to the bridge of my nose, and across my face from ear to ear, nothing but horrible pain. I could barely open my eyes because even the dimmest light made my head feel like it was going to explode. I took some Excedrine Migraine, and it got much better. I still have some pain, but it definitely helped a lot. I knew it was coming, because of what time of month it is, so it wasn't too surprising. I'm also still dealing with the annoying abdominal pain, and my chronic vertigo was also acting up, so I was dizzy on top of all of these things.
I seriously didn't know how I was going to feed myself or my daughter today, let alone work out. Even when the pain was diminished, I was still weak and shaky. I've had a very rough couple of days. But, I told myself that I would put my running shoes on, and walk. If I walked for ten minutes, and still felt okay, I would jog. If I jogged for 16 minutes and still felt okay, I would jog for another 16 minutes, and so on. I ended having 20 minutes of fast paced walking, and a 37 minute jog. I never would have believed it this morning.
Here is a day where I had every excuse to sit on the couch and watch tv. To not get anything done. To skip my workout. But I didn't. And for that I am proud.
Motivation is so important in this battle. Part of what got me going was that my one month weigh in is on the 8th. Today and tomorrow are my "last chance" workout days for that. I want to have good numbers on the scale and the tape measure. I also want to be as healthy as I can get for my surgery on the 10th. I'm running out of time so I have to give it my all.
I'm proud of myself today. And although I still don't feel great, I think I'm in a better place mentally. I owe a big part of that to all of my spark friends who have been so supportive. You have all showed me so much kindness and compassion. I want to sincerely thank you for all that you have done for me.
Big hugs to all of you guys.