Thursday, January 05, 2012
The time has come - time to face the truth and realize what I have done. No time or reason to blame myself, it will only piss me off even more.
I have never been this heavy before and I can't believe what a different person I have became because of it. I am sluggish, grouchy and just not who I really am anymore. Sore and achey, I feel 80 quite often.
Thankful that I feel a change happening - dare I say it a 'spark' starting to happen. I don't want to live like a frumpy old fat lady that I have became. I want to be the crazy and insane--sometimes on the edge that I used to be...mainly I want to be healthy and happy!
Food isn't a bff - used it to comfort myself and use it pass time...just drugs for the body not any type of fuel. It must stop - I would never treat my animals or vehicle like this, why do I think it is ok to treat myself this way?
I can, I will and I finally want to make a change - a lot of changes....
Have many more thoughts, will post again.