Tuesday, January 03, 2012
I'm not having second thoughts so soon. Never! This is the man I want to be with forever.
However, I am worried about how we'll pay for it. We basically live pay check to pay check and both live with our parents, because after we pay our bills (car payments, insurance, etc), we have enough to spend on gas and some guilty pleasures (he smokes). So yes, money is an issue. And while we have a bit of time before we'll get married, we also don't have a lot of time. We want to get moved in together and that's going to take money.
Money, money money. It's frustrating right now! People wonder why the economy is in such a crappy state. Well, it doesn't help when cost of living goes up but wages don't. Or you don't get enough hours (like me and my 5.5 hours a day). I'm almost tempted to get another job but I don't think I could do it. There's hardly anything around here and it's hard to find a job, as is, around here. I don't want to work at a fast food place. I don't know. It's something I'm going to have to look into though. I also thought about starting to sell some of my homemade things.
So yes, money is what has me nervous about this wedding deal. I don't want a huge shindig, but I don't want to be all wimpy either. I also want to be able to do a bridal shower because god knows it'd get me a lot of stuff that we would be able to use (I know that sounds selfish but you take what you can get when you don't have a ton of money!).
I'm hoping to do some of my stuff homemade and hope that cuts down on costs. I've got plenty of time to figure things out, I suppose. We haven't even decided on a date yet.