Tuesday, January 03, 2012
I don't know why I gave up. I am so sick and tired of yo yoing. I know that I don't need to eat all that fattening food but I have issues with over eating when I have emotional turmoil and pier pressure is a huge effect as well. Sometimes when I go out and eat all I really want to eat is a salad or something light so that I don't feel tired and drained, but then people say things like,"Awww, its a night out, take a break from all that." or "Whats the point of going out and eat if you are just going to eat something like that." or I get the feeling that they feel bad because I am eating healthy and they are not. So, I don't eat healthy because I don't want to hear it from everyone or I don't want them to feel bad about their food choices.
Maybe they should feel bad about their food choices and the reason why they stay over weight is because people in their life don't care enough to speak up and help them. The weightloss journey is hard when you do it alone. It is almost impossible to do it alone. It is nice now for me not to do it alone anymore. My husband wasn't onboard for a long time but now he is on board for the last couple of months. He wants to eat healthy now so the pier pressure won't be as bad and if I make good choices then he will make good choices.
I feel so much better when I eat healthy. I need to really think about things before I put them in my mouth! Is it really worth it?????? Is that 5 minutes of "good taste" worth the guilt after putting it in my mouth or even worse, is it worth the loss of energy for potentially the rest of the day along with the rest of the bad food choices I will continue to make? No! It is not worth it. I need to take care of my body. I want to be healthy and I want to have energy so I can play with my children and not be grouchy.
I am going to try to blog at least once a week and I am going to read the forums for inspiration! Back on spark and I am going to do it long term this time!