Monday, January 02, 2012
November 2011 saw my triumphant return to Disney World. Its been 2 years since our last trip to WDW. We went with my Mom and Dad who had never been there before. I am including a passage from my “Princess in Training” blog so you can understand part of the pain involved in going down to Florida.
“Anyway, as much as I love going to WDW, there is always a sense of apprehension about going. In the past, I didn’t fit comfortably in airplane seats. So I took up my seat and part of Matthew’s too. Embarrassing isn’t a strong enough word…. Same rang true for ride seats, bus seats, and basically anything else that I had to fit my oversized rear end into. I had a hard time having the energy to do all that walking. There were frequent breaks. I was also over the weight limit on some rides, not that I actually TOLD anyone that fact. Again, embarrassing isn’t a strong enough word. My constant fear was that I would be asked to get off a ride (it never happened, but I still worried that it would!) However all of that has changed. That person is a mere shadow of the person I am today. I am more excited than ever to go on my WDW trip in November, and my trip in February to run Princess will be a dream come true.”
I returned to WDW 105 lbs lighter than the last time I had been there. I made it a point to take some pictures in the same places I had in the past to serve as a reference. Sometimes, especially lately, I have needed some reminders of the person I used to be. Sometimes it is hard for me to remember that the slip ups I have been experiencing are really rather small in the large scheme of things. I think that I have shifted my mindset in that I don’t think about that person I used to be as being me anymore. She isn’t my focus anymore. I now look at myself and see the improvements I want to make. Unfortunately, while I may not see myself at 300 pounds anymore, my negative thoughts about the body that I am currently in, are the same. I am working on this and making an effort to improve the way I think and talk about myself. I have been seriously considering talking to a professional to help me move along this path. I know that mental health is just as important as physical health and if one is struggling, the other will follow. BUT I will take the steps I need to and that is all I need to focus on right now. I am trying very hard to not look at the whole picture because I have found that in my current emotional state it tends to send me into a breakdown. We all have our struggles and I am working through mine. As I said in my last post, I am not focusing on what I should have done, but on what I can do differently from this point on. Its going to be difficult, and it is going to be a lot of hard work, but it has been up until this point, so I expect nothing less from the next part of my journey. I have decided that I am starting fresh. Yes, I have come a long way, but I still have a long way to go until I reach my goals. I have some pretty ambitious things brewing my brain, and I think I am finally ready to buckle down and finish what I have started. I am saving these ambitions for later, but I am pretty excited at the prospect!
So without further ado, here are the Disney pictures, a lifetime in the making.
Now I am a Princess in Training: