dreams for 2012
Monday, January 02, 2012
I have been daydreaming about what I wish would happen in 2012. I hesitate to call these resolutions or goals because I will probably fail them as I usually do.
1. I want to get paid once for my writing this year.
2. Continue to expand viewership of my blog.
3. Interview one person and write about it on my other blog.
4. Lose thirty pounds in time for my 40th birthday. (I doubt that I will do this one even more than the others)
5. Post a picture a month on the photo team here at sparkPeople.
Why do I want to do these thing?
I want to become a writer who blesses others with the message of God's love. I guess that losing weight would make me healthier. All though, it seems weird that all of my physical always come back fine. Maybe, it wouldn't help me at all but my body hates that I cram sweets in it too much. It whines at me sometimes (I will not go into details on how it complains right now). I don't want to get old and have no one there for me. I remember my grandma standing at my great aunt's funeral talking about everyone has left me. I don't to be the last one of my generation to die. But, I don't want to be the first in my generation to die either. I am starting to get to old to have kids and don't even have a husband. I wish I could have a family sometime in 2012. I still feel a little like a third wheel when I visit my sister and her family. I know that they are my family too but at the same time they are not. (I wanted this post to be a positive one) If twenty years from now is like now-God help me. Is it the long-term nature of eating healthy that makes it so hard? Maybe a person needs to reason to want to live to get old. I love to write but I fear that I will never succeed at this dream.
My cat, Puffers, is very cute. She likes to sit on the table by the stove and watch me cook.