Sunday, January 01, 2012
Tomorrow is MY Monday! The day I get to start all over again with my "diet". My eating habits have gone down the drain and I'm paying for it! Bloat and more bloat making my tummy appear larger! I might have gained a few pounds in the past month but OH WELL! What's done is done! But I can surely start over again! I have done it before and all it takes is for me to stick with it!! 100% I have to think of my future goals and keep those in mind ALL day long! I'm on medication now which has been helping me BIG time lately! I know I can do this!!!!
But I need YOUR help!
I'm going to try my hardest to blog my food every day. I'll see how far I actually get. I need to try harder with making my meals. I think I need to start out by throwing out all the junk in the house! Bleh! Yuck! I'll probably organize the pantry and put all the junk in one area of it and the rest good healthier stuff. My husband eats junk. He can keep it for himself!
Well let's see. My night was actually pretty awesome. We started out by having burgers and goodies here at my house. I made turkey burgers and some cowboy burgers for my husband and brother. I made fruit salad, salsa, guacamole, taco dip and a friend brought over a bag of chips. Yum! I overdosed on chips and brownies. Oops! But later on in the night my good friend stole me away and we went dancing! For the first time in my life I celebrated New Years Eve with a good (best) friend of mine! I loved it! My husband and brother weren't too happy about it but they don't understand.
Imagine spending most of your life overweight and unhappy. Most of your life tucked away in a corner. Shy. Afraid of coming out and expressing yourself for others to see. You can't express yourself when you are overweight, obese. It's hard! Clothes don't fit right! Ugh! And cute small black dresses? Forget it! I used to never be able to wear dresses without having to wear stockings first because of my thighs touching so much. Last night was the very FIRST night I have ever worn a dress!!! A small black one! Small enough for me anyway! :) And it didn't even belong to me! It was my friends! (and I wore it comfortably WITHOUT tights on!) I NEVER EVER in my life borrowed anything from a (skinny, thin, fit, whatever) friend, I was always TOO BIG!!! Clothes are blah when they are always in XL or size 18+. AT least to me they always were blah on me. But then again I always went for comfort, not looks.
It's so opposite now.
But last night was one of the best nights of my life! I feel like I'm finally living life! Living the life I always wanted to live when I was in my 20's (and overweight!!). All thanks to my new friend. She's helped me in more ways than one! I am very thankful she's in my life! She's such a good influence! Although I don't think my husband would agree since she came into my house last night and announced she was going to steal me away for the night :-P hehehe ! It was TOO much fun!!
I spent a good 7 years in Norway without having any real, close, best, friends. I have never in my life had a friend like this before. Ever. My husband had his friends back in Norway but always chose NOT to hang out with them. His loss. Now that I have friends I find I really DO want to hang out with them as often as I can! I need to spread my wings out a little bit more and fly though :) I'm sure there are other fabulous people out there! I can't wait to meet them!
So tomorrow is going to mark day 1 in my "back to healthy eating" life. I NEED to do this! I have to!!! For ME! I want my waist to shrink a bit more and my hips and thighs and BUTT too! :-D
I can't wait! I need to just keep myself motivated! Throw away the junk food! Ugh!!
OK well gotta go. I'll try to post a pic of me in my dress at a later time. ;-) I looked good!!!