Although this last month has been tough with being okay with my weight loss so far and struggling to want to eat what I want to eat when I want to eat it with God and because of God I've made it to 100 pounds lost!!!
I am now at a fabulous 180.6 pounds! I was starting to be okay with my weight loss so far, but no I will never be okay with eating unhealthy every other day and making excuses for my behaviors. But no a mediocre life, a half hearted attempt and being healthy is not okay for me! I want to see 150 or 140! I want to live EVERY day in obedience to God and always make the next right decision, I know I won't be perfect in this life but I want to work closer and closer to it!
I've only managed to get a streak of 3 days of God honoring days but I'm making progress!
this is the 280 pound girl who was trapped by her past, couldn't escape the desperate need for more and more food! The girl who hated herself and everyone who made her that way.
this is the girl who hated being seen with her sister. This is the girl who never looked forward to the holidays because she was the biggest one there, the girl who ate and ate to feel some kind of comfort at Thanksgiving and Christmas. But only felt worse after her third helping.
this is the girl who never wanted her husband to see her naked, who never excepted a compliment of "your beautiful" or "who's my sexy woman" the answer was always yeah whatever or not me.
With God, all things are possible Matthew 19:26
I know He who began a good work in you will complete it Philippians 1:6
This is the girl who felt amazing at Christmas! The girl who finally wasn't the fattest in the room!!!
This is the girl who can just have a conversation with her sister and enjoy being siblings, enjoy her company.
I no longer hate myself, or sleep all day so I didn't have to spend any time with myself.
Like I said I'm no where near perfect but 100 pounds isn't bad! :D