January 1, 2012. 230 lbs. The heaviest I've ever been. How did I get here? Why I just came back to (almost) where I was before. In December of 2010, I was at my sister-in-law's (total sweetheart) and I was feeling some anxiety for some reason and I started to binge a bit after having successfully had that under control for a good while. I had even done an aerobic DVD for 3 weeks straight and gone walking regularly too after years of inactivity. 2010, until late December, had been a successful weight loss year. Back to Dec. 2010, I kept saying "I'll stop sneaking food tomorrow" or "It (this food) doesn't matter because I've already good off my diet today." And it didn't end there. I've been struggling with that one small slip all 2011. I lost weight, got down to 208 (my lightest in a while) and then in the past six weeks, I've gained 25 lbs because I've been eating like a 7 year old set free in a Candy Barn for a month and a half. My behaviour baffles me. I even did Yoga teacher training during this binge episode. Before then, I had been juicing (loved it) (highly recommend Kimberly Synder's book) and eating well. My stubborn metabolism had turned a corner and weight loss had become easy again. No matter how much sugar I threw at it, it kept me at the same weight. If I did go over my magic number, I'd stop desserts for a day or two and back I'd go, down again.
Well, it is New Year's Day, Jan.1, 2012 and I'm reigning myself in. I'm not on a diet I can fall off. For instance, we still have some of my favourite dessert left in the house, and this year I've decided that I'm not going to throw it out in one full swoop. I ate some of it today, had an English muffin (whole wheat) with cashew butter, and a homemade beet plus a bunch of fantastic veggies. For dinner, I'm going to have a reasonable portion of vegetable lasagna (again, not what I'd normally have on the first day of the year). But my husband made it for New Year's Eve, and it is one of my favourite dishes (whole wheat noodles
and is something I want to eat today. Oh, and I've had massive amounts of water! Yum.
So to sum up, what I want to say is if you've been off your program last month, create a clean slate and to start ANEW. It's disheartening when you have to work 25 lbs hard just to get where you already were a mere 6 weeks ago and you have a few more 25 lbs to go. The other thing is to take it easy on yourself. Remember the 10-20% rule: Eat well for 80-90% of the time and make the remainder really count by treating yourself to things that you love.
All the best to you and Happy New Year,
BTW If anyone has any insight as to why I ate 25 pounds worth of desserts in 6 weeks, even while taking yoga teacher training, I'd love to hear your hypothesis!