Sunday, January 01, 2012
Anyone set any New Year's resolutions? I'm not usually one for that, but this year I have one, although it has a few moving parts.
I resolve to be a grown-up.
I know, sounds weird, but here's what I mean. Only children expect that they should get what they want the minute they want it. Only children believe if X is a good thing, X to the 10th degree is even better. So I resolve -
1. To be a grown-up financially. We have a line of credit from buying the truck last year that is no closer to being paid off this year because I keep "having" to dip into it. There, I said it. My husband and I make terrific money together and yet we can't seem to spend within our means. I am going to budget for the things we want, shop less, and get that damned LOC paid down. I am cheating our future by the way I've been behaving and that's ending. It's also setting a poor example for Katie, who really does think that money comes from a bank machine with an unlimited supply.
2. To be a grown-up with my health. Two years ago I went from 194 pounds to 172 pounds and was very proud of myself. Then I skated along for a year. One year ago today I resolved to lose another 10 pounds and I did it, and I'm still proud of myself. But I haven't achieved a single goal weight for myself in the time alotted. It may seem silly and arbitrary, but it's meaningful to me. The reason I haven't is because I haven't held myself accountable. I cheat, and I justify, and I slack off. I owe it to the unhappy 194 pound woman to really try, to really see how far I can go. I've set a new goal weight and I'm going to hit it, because I'm going to be a grown-up about it. I don't get chocolate or chips or pizza just because I want it at the time. A hard day doesn't justify not exercising and an extra serving - or two - of spaghetti.
3. To be a grown-up about alcohol. Do I have a problem with booze? I don't think so. The very fact that I'm asking the question would suggest I don't, but I'm also self-aware enough to know that I don't use alcohol responsibly, like a grown-up. One glass of wine becomes two, then three. And then I eat. Like the above example, a hard day at work doesn't justify an extra glass. I'm not going to give up completely, but will keep it to one glass an evening under normal circumstances. Special occasions are something else, but not an excuse to be an idiot. I would like to go this whole year without being hung over.
OK, so that's it. "They" say the best way to stick to a resolution or goal is to tell another person. Consider yourselves told. Thanks for reading.