Sunday, January 01, 2012
So, I haven't weighed myself in 2 weeks. I was going to last Monday, which is the day I've been weighing at the gym, but I didn't make it down to the locker room because we didn't swim and I just went straight home....and the week before I was too stuffed and feeling afraid from christmas, even though I didn't really overdo it all that much.
So, I'm going to weigh myself tomorrow, and that's a promise to myself.
I had also made myself a little challenge that I would lose a certain amount my Jan 1, and I'm pretty sure that didn't happen, and I couldn't think of a reward for myself, because, honestly, rewards like that aren't going to work for me. I can sort of get myself whatever I want whenever I want it, anyway....so I had made a deal with myself that if I lost this amount, if I could get to under 200 lbs by Jan 1, I would pay part of my son's credit card off. But then I went ahead and did that anyway a few days after Christmas.
So, I don't know. I have to just keep doing what I'm doing. Minus the eating of too much fake fat free kraft american cheese which has too much sodium and is a bit constipating. And I have to be a little more on top of the tracking. Which mostly means that I have to cook at home and track my recipes. I ran into a problem over Christmas making food for guests that I didn't track as recipes and then, eating leftovers, I was doing a good bit of guess-timating, which I have no idea if I was correct or not!
Once I weigh myself and can see what is what I think I will feel a little better. I really have the most distorted body image I have no idea how I've done these past two weeks.
Here's to regaining clarity in 2012!