Friday, December 30, 2011
its day 5 of my healthy, peaceful, smokefree new life and I'm happier than I've been in a long time just because I made my mind up to start making myself a priority and start creating the life I want rather than whining about the life I have and all its stress. Theres a great freedom that comes when you truly get to the end of yourself in a situation and finally just have to throw up your hands and say I'm through trying to control, or feel the responsiblity for what I cannot control. Hallejuhah...I am there...can I get an amen Sistas. lol
My last five days have been about what I can control. Its a matter of choosing to give yourself the time you need.
I can practice stress management techniques to combat the stress thats been wreaking havoc with me the last several months. I'm doing deep breathing exercises, and have some great 1 minute visualizations that promote health, and peace.
I'm not smoking frantically killing my health all in an effort to smother my emotions with ciggerette smoke and soothe my stress away.
I've scheduled a lunch break that I've never taken before and now I eat a healthy lunch from home rather than junk from a drive through that I gulp down while running errands in the company car.
I've also taken the time to have a walking break during my work hours and have been showing up to work with my sneakers on my feet. lol
I'm drinking water.
I'm strength training.
I'm going to bed early.
I'm actively looking at my thoughts and changing the negative for the positive.
I'm taking the time to pray and to be quiet and to really listen.
I'm tracking my food and my fitness.
All these little things are adding up to big things for me.....I feel successful and empowered for the first time in months, I feel excited, I feel confident, I feel better phsyically, I'm definitly more positive and less run down. The last several months I've been trying to control what is not within my power to control, worry, fret, sleepless nights, left me feeling completely lifeless, just enduring now with the decision to not allow any job to destroy me, and by assuming responsiblity for how I choose to respond to those stress filled situation. It feels like I've been set free. Whoooo HOOOOO I feel good...and its about time. I'm going to be keeping my eye out for a new position and not let fear of the unknown hold me back.
I'm excited for 2012 and wish all of you a very happy, healthy 2012 too.