Thursday, December 29, 2011
It's been a rough year. I've hit walls, fallen on my face, been crushed, life turned upside down but I never stopped getting up, I never stopped fighting! I've learned to stop trying to be so perfect. That it's okay to embrace my darkness as part of who I am. I view it as strength rather than a weakness, it is not shameful. To me it is powerful. I realized that where I fall is when I find my strength to fly. This is where my motto of 'Fall into the darkness, Fly into the Light' has come from.
I've embraced this strength and in doing so have found a mental strength I had lost. The strength to run further, harder, and faster. To lift heavier and make the impossible possible. To push myself passed the pain to a place where there is no 'I can't', a place where there are no excuses, a place where the only thing between me and my goals is myself.
With this new, stronger, healthier mentality I was able to accomplish more than I'd set out to do at the beginning of this year. I reached 155 lbs, a weight I haven't seen in years, I fit back into Miss Me Jeans :D (not size 31or 30, but 29s!) I've lost 23 lbs and gained at least 10 hard pounds of muscle. I earned a healthy BMI. I have a new respect for a healthy lifestyle, balanced diet, and routine fitness. I am more carefree, organized, and have become a better me in general. I've grown stronger, wiser, and happier. I am lighter, healthier, and more positive.
With all the challenges and hardship this year threw at me, I fought, I won!
I am thrilled that I made 2011 amazing! Looking forward, I plan on making 2012 even better!!!