I would love to tell everyone I had some success, but I did not. I went up 2, now at 242. Matt stayed the same. I am having a difficult time. Last week I was 240. Itís this back and forth battle with those same few pounds.
On a good note: Matt had a follow-up Dr. appt. for his triglycerides and blood pressure. He is off one of his three medications and they are very pleased that he no longer sucks down Ramen noodles like its the end of the world. So he gets a well deserved pat on the back.
Iíve peed on two sticksÖI am certain it is not that!
Here is a post I wrote on the Nutrisystem Forums:
Feeling Defeated. What Do You Do?
Beginning of the month :240
End of the month: 239.6
I went down, up, up, and up.
Beginning of the month: 234.6
End of the month: 227.8
He went down, down, down, and stayed down.
What bothers me most is that I followed the program 99%. He followed the program maybe 60%. I exercised. He didnít.
I have struggled all year with my weight. Earlier this year when I was on Nutrisystem, I gained and lost the same 10 lbs over and over.
During the summer, even though I was still eating good and going to the gym, my weight still kept going up. My back hurting more.
I thought it was stress. I thought it was hormones so I went off my birth control.
I am still gaining.
It is depressing because I now have 2 pairs of pants that fit and a couple of shirts. I donít want to have to buy new clothes. I am the largest I have ever been in my life. I have no idea what I am doing wrong. I have never had a problem losing weight in the past when I followed a program.
Having said that, I am blessed to have good insurance now, thanks to my husband. I have an appt on the 22nd. It was the first appt. they have available. Hopefully we can get to the bottom of this weight gain and get some sort of resolution. I canít keep living in this body. The strain on my back causes too much pain. Quite literally, itís ruining my life.
I donít want to give up, but I almost feel defeated no matter what I do.
At this point I am not sure what I should do.
What would you do? Stop until you speak with the doc? Keep pushing forward on the program?
Since writing that I did speak with a few folks on the Nutrisystem forum. The overall report was that I should just keep moving forward. See what my doctor has to say and continue on.
I had to reschedule my appt. because I had a migraine that morning and the pain in my back was so severe I was in bed all day. My appt. is now the first week of January. I am making a list of all these issues I want to talk to her about so that I donít forget anything. I just feel defeated and so unsure. I feel like this is never going to end.
I fell off the wagon over the holiday. I admit it. I eat when I am emotional, which seems to be all the time since I am manic depressive. Pretty much bi-polar. My mood swings are so severe they can wipe me out of all my energy. I donít feel like doing a damn thing.
But I KNOW something has to change. So I am trying to make changes.
I made a pot of vegetable soup. I have been making this soup since I was on the other weight loss plan 10 years ago. It seems I never make it the same way twice. It starts with some low sodium chicken stock, vegetable stock or beef stock depending on your taste. Sometimes I skip the stock and will use homemade canned tomatoes from our garden and make it a tomato base. If I used all of my cans, canned from the store works too. I will then throw in whatever is available. This particular batch in the photos is cabbage, carrots, celery, tomato (and base from my garden), green pepper, onion (from the garden), and radish. I tend to throw in what is about to go bad from the salad bin. In the winter it is harder to eat salad.
The only thing I have mixed with this vegetable soup (usually I just eat it as my side vegetable) was the Nutrisystem lunch red beansand chicken sausage (which gave me a nice spicy treat) and the last couple of nights I cut up the dinner flamebroiled beef patty. Both options were yummy and quite filling. Just a thought for those who need some other options I would share this.
I am trying to get back on track. My back depends on me to do so.
On a side note my mom bought me Back2Life, which is a back machine that is supposed to help with alignment, pressure, and movement. It was a Christmas present with the hopes of helping me manage the pain. I have used it every day since. Matt purchased a $300 ergonomic chair for me for Christmas with the hopes of alleviating some of the discomfort. I dragged my ball from downstairs to upstairs and went back to the videos my old chiropractor started me on, which are on Sparkpeople. I found a Nutrisytem group there and was thrilled!
Disclosure: Nutrisystem is providing their Nutrisystem Womenís Plan to me free of charge in exchange for writing about my experience as part of the Nutrisystem Nation Blogger Program. All opinions are 100% mine. My opinions and results may differ from others.
My NS Journey on my freelance site www.selfemployedwriter.c
My author site and personal writings www.chrystalmahan.com