I feel like I AM "ready"... I re-joined Weight Watcher's last night, up quite a bit from the bwginning of the year... but.. not dwelling on that - need to focus on staying on track - eating right - getting exercise... then the weight will come off, and I will be a happier and healthier person!
My clothes are getting tighter and tighter with each passing day... I got new clothes (same size) for Christmas, and I am NOT allowing yself to try them on yet! I refuse to put myself through that - right now... maybe in a week or so...
I am so tired all the time... not the tired I get walking up and down my stairs in my house - but the tired just from sitting at my desk at work! Today I have a bit if a headache... no matter how much water I drink, and it is causing my eyes to want to close even more!!
I am not "happy" with myself - or any part of my life right now... and I know a lot depends on my feeling better... physically and mentally... which I do believe will improve with weight loss.
I am joining a gym... unless I talk myself out of it between now and next week! I am waiting until after January 1, so I can get reimbursement from my insurance and my work... it is based on a calendar year, and you have to belong for 4 months... so I can wait the extra week!
I have never been an exercise person... walking is hard to make myself do most days... but when I went to Curves, I did "enjoy" it... I just didn't make myself go often enough to enjoy it for all it had to offer! This time is different! My husband works a second job - in the winter, so nights when he will not be home anyway - I want to stop at the gym on my way home! It will serve a couple purposes...
1.) I will not be home alone, to eat and/or drink my time away!
2.) I will get a work out (of some kind) three - four nights a week!!
I have already scaled back my evening drinking... now I choose to only drink when it is a special "occasion"... a social event... so I think that will also help me to get past the "depressed" part of winter, along with exercise and eating right... I should be able to lose this weight once and for all!
So - I am starting to take control TODAY - and by the time 2012 comes around I will be READY to fully committ to the program and the exercise "plan"!