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Tomorrow: I begin AGAIN

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

i have been terrible the past week!

i feel awful. i know i have gained at least 10 lbs. i got home from florida today - i unpacked and headed to the gym for the first time in 9 days!! i lasted a mere 30 minutes on the elliptical and my legs were like rubber!!

i feel so crappy it is not even funny. i ate everything in sight, no holds barred. apple pie! chocolate covered nuts, chocolate, candy -- you name it... i had it. i didn't even try to limit myself and i do not know why!!

i used to be able to limit myself and know when to say NO! i am so depressed about this it is driving me crazy. i have come too far to fall back now. tomorrow is a new day and i will begin again. i have not gotten on a scale in 9 days and to be quite frank, i am afraid to. i know i will see at least 165!! which is 15lbs higher than i was 3 weeks ago.

i need to recommit. i'm scared. i cannot waiver and falter!! i over did everything this past week on vaca in florida and i knew it when i was doing it and i knew i'd feel horrible but it did not stop me. i used vacation and the holiday as an excuse to NOT CARE.

but that is over and i will return to my healthy lifestyle. i know that this binge did nothing for me. nothing but make me feel horrible (physically and mentally). i guess maybe i needed a small reminder of why i chose the healthy route. i miss my gym and the feeling i get after exercising. i can't wait to get my fruits and veggies back in the house tomorrow....

i just feel like SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!
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    hope you've moved on from this... and are doing better.. & have gotten your butt back to the GYM!!! ;)
    1754 days ago
    Oh Kat... I get it, I've been able to successfully gain 20 pounds in the last 5 months, and I hate myself... BUT, like you, I have realized that I screwed up, and am moving forward... It does us no good to say I shouldn't have had XYZ because the fact is, we DID have it, and now we must adjust for it. So, you get on the scale, you buy your fruits and veggie's, go back to the gym (I just joined on 2 weeks ago), and you remember why you hated being where you were, not where you are... You have come so far, and you have done AMAZING things, and that's what you need to remember. You'll get back on that horse and do it again!
    My prayers are with you, you CAN do this.
    1760 days ago
    The important thing is to get back on the wagon. Don't dwell on the past.
    1761 days ago
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