Tuesday, December 27, 2011
i have been terrible the past week!
i feel awful. i know i have gained at least 10 lbs. i got home from florida today - i unpacked and headed to the gym for the first time in 9 days!! i lasted a mere 30 minutes on the elliptical and my legs were like rubber!!
i feel so crappy it is not even funny. i ate everything in sight, no holds barred. apple pie! chocolate covered nuts, chocolate, candy -- you name it... i had it. i didn't even try to limit myself and i do not know why!!
i used to be able to limit myself and know when to say NO! i am so depressed about this it is driving me crazy. i have come too far to fall back now. tomorrow is a new day and i will begin again. i have not gotten on a scale in 9 days and to be quite frank, i am afraid to. i know i will see at least 165!! which is 15lbs higher than i was 3 weeks ago.
i need to recommit. i'm scared. i cannot waiver and falter!! i over did everything this past week on vaca in florida and i knew it when i was doing it and i knew i'd feel horrible but it did not stop me. i used vacation and the holiday as an excuse to NOT CARE.
but that is over and i will return to my healthy lifestyle. i know that this binge did nothing for me. nothing but make me feel horrible (physically and mentally). i guess maybe i needed a small reminder of why i chose the healthy route. i miss my gym and the feeling i get after exercising. i can't wait to get my fruits and veggies back in the house tomorrow....
i just feel like SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!