Tuesday, December 27, 2011
There is a Latin proverb that goes something like this: "revenge is a confession of pain"; it is very much true. I have had so many fantasies of revenge lately and it's only because I want her to hurt the way I hurt. I recognize that it is petty and childish and it's not at all the type of person that I want to be. It isn't something I would ever really do and I know it wouldn't make me feel better anyway. I wish this never happened. I'm still grieving and feel so depressed. I wish I could "snap out of it" or stop thinking about it but it's going to take time.
I need to focus on what I hope to accomplish in 2012. There are some things on the horizon that could be really good for me and my family and I need to put my energy into those things.