Monday, December 26, 2011
It has truly been a roller coaster this year! Started a new job at a hospital that I loved! VERY PHYSICAL! VERY VERY PHYSICAL! 10 miles or more of walking and pushing and pulling and moving and grooving! Gave me a great workout! Then one day... it bit me in the behind! Got rammed by a couple hundred LB. hospital bed (I was a transporter) and that was the end of me. This was in MAY! However, the docs didnt' think so and shoved me back into work saying I had a hip sprain and all is good. HA! What a long story. I wont bore you with the 7 months of details! Summarizing. 2 hip injections, did nothing. Months later, a brilliant genius of a doctor came up with an old saying "Hip bone is connected to the back bone". Rest was history. Found a bomb exploded in my lower back. L5-SI severed herniation that was severing my nerves down my leg causing me a boatload of agony, pain, numbess and actually severely diminished reflexes in my lower leg by that point. 2 fluroscopy epidurals. Eventually, urged to get lumbar surgery. Did so on 12/12/11. (Yup, 7 months later) What a goings on! What a toll on a persons body that was previously active, happy, healthy! Now I know how people can eventually fall off the wagon, even with my 2-3 years of 80 LBS LOSS success! This is not meant to discourage anyone. This is meant to ENCOURAGE! Don't let things get you down like I have. Fight like hell! I didn't. I tried, believe me... but not as hard as I know I could have. I am now. I am doing a lot better. Hoping I don't need any more surgeries right NOW. I will later unfortunately, possibly a fushion down the road. But right now... I am regaining ground. I am not letting this take anymore part of my soul and ripping me down. I WILL LOOSE this weight gain back... plus more. Everyone was so proud of me. I was proud of me. I feel like I have left everyone down. I wanted to be that example. I will be again. I am purposely not waiting for the new year. I didn't even start phyiscal therapy yet until January. I have weeks left of recovery. But in the meantime... I'll be damned if I see the 200's again! DAMNED I TELL YA! I'm backing away from the comfort food. Kicking it to the curb. Stop feeling sorry for myself. I already have new less physical jobs lined up. Heck... I think I am going to be a Tech at the hospital. Basically a nurses aide. I love helping people. I think maybe now I do beleive... Everything happens for a reason.
A good friend of mine has a song called "Love In Everything-Mica Roberts-Itunes" and one of her lines is... "Be grateful for the broken dreams, that somtimes lead you down a better road". Amen Sister. Amen.
I am coming back in style in 2012. You won't see me down like this every again. That is a promise.
Cheers to the new year everyone! Dont wait to make that new years "resolution. Make a healthy choice NOW! Don't wait.
Much love and I missed my spark community!