A Christmas Gift
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Yesterday, I blogged about how frantic I was while I was trying to buy my family's Christmas gifts the day before Christmas Eve. I was wrong when I said that I waited until the last minute to get everyone's gift. There is one gift that I've been working on for 231 days: my own. This year I gave myself the best present ever. Basically, I gave myself my life back. Over 70 pounds of my body is completely gone (almost a third of myself)!!! When I started this journey, I really had no idea what I was getting myself into. I thought I knew, and although I was partially right, I was still way off. I thought I just wanted to lose weight and feel good again. However, I had been obese for so long that I didn't even know what feeling good meant anymore. I thought I did. But, I underestimated the feeling. No, I really, really underestimated it. When you lose this much weight, your life changes in a million ways. Every moment is perceived differently. You might not notice it constantly, especially if you lose yourself in your work or other daily hustle bustle. But, when you stop and look around and take it all in, you clearly understand that things are really different. You really feel great; you really feel alive. Honestly, it will probably still take me quite a bit more time to get used to being myself again. I also think the mental shift you make to lose the weight is different than the mental shift you need to make to live in the changes that have been made. I'm not just talking about maintaining the weight loss; I'm also talking about living and enjoying your life in the present moment. Granted, you don't need to lose weight in order to do this, but when you do that moment is all the better to enjoy. All of that running around and shopping I did late last night was much more enjoyable and easier to do weighing 70 pounds less than I did last winter. In fact, just about everything is easier and more enjoyable to do.
Anyhow, it's late and I just wanted to share that this Christmas I received an awesome gift. And, I gave it to myself.
Happy Holidays to everyone!