Saturday, December 24, 2011
I say 'back on the wagon', but I haven't completely fallen off of it, I'm just sort of hanging on for dear life. I guess if I fell off it and had to chase it to get back on, at least I'd be running! What I mean is that my eating is still under control, but I am having a hard time getting exercise back on the schedule. I got it in twice this week, and very light exercise at that, but I felt good that I got in some, because some is still better than none!
I'm still enjoying work, and I'm finally getting trained to the point where I can DO some work, which is nice. The last two days they put me with another trainee and gave us a few assignments to puzzle our way through, and we did ok. I'm really starting to understand how things work. When I was just watching other people work, I found I had to snack a bit more to keep up my energy because it is SO boring watching someone else working on the computer and taking notes. Yesterday when I had work to do the day just flew by, and I didn't even think of snacking. I have to be careful, because one day I tried had not to snack, and when I got home I got a terrible headache. When I tracked my food I found I'd only had 600 calories so far for the day (veggies to snack on and fruit and a lite salad for lunch). So too little food isn't good either!
When I'm at work, I'm completely at work. I try not to think of home or anything else, and just fully concentrate and devote myself to what I need to do. Though I found that challenging last week when a panhandler hit me up for change, and when I said no she followed me for a block screaming at me about what a bitch I was and how I had a fat ass. Not a great way to start the morning! And it kind of distracted me all day - I felt just like when I was back in school and had bullys I was worried about running into. I found myself thinking about if I'd walk a different way to the bus stop on the way home in the evening. It was funny, because it reminded me of feelings I hadn't felt in ages. Luckily I haven't seen her again.
The work days are long, and the commute is long, and I don't have nearly the time at home I used to have. I think I really need to get up early and exercise. By the time I get home, I'm just too tired, and I want to spend my time with my family. Morning is my best chance of making exercise a priority and getting it in first thing and off the schedule.
So my goal for next week is to get up early, exercise in the morning, and start making that a good habit. I CAN do it, I know I can!
Hope you all have a wonderful holiday weekend!