Friday, December 23, 2011
I've been thinking a lot lately about how unpredictable life can be, how unfair, yet how much of it is still up to how I decide to handle what I've been dealt.
Life was rolling along as planned. I was on track to graduate in one year with my master's degree in nursing and the ability to practice as a nurse practitioner; I was working full time as an ER nurse, and life with my daughter and husband was going well. That all changed on November 18th when I was out on my weekly bike ride and was hit head on by a large commercial van while stopped at a light. I don't remember much as the van hit me, threw me quite a ways and knocked me out. I had damage to most of my extremities and especially my right knee where I believe the van probably made contact with my body.
I am lucky that I was wearing my helmet as I always do, that I wasn't killed, or that more permanent damage was not done to me. The bones of my lower leg are badly bruised and I have post-concussion syndrome that involves headache, dizziness, and concentration problems. My doctor prescribed Ritalin so I could take my final exams (I ended up passing them all) and I was even able to go back to work this week after being unable to function properly for the last 4 weeks. I am still in pain and loathe the dizziness that plagues me along with the difficulty remembering details but feel myself gradually returning to normal.
I am still a bit bitter that the man driving the van was careless and cut his left turn short leaving me wounded and all my plans for school and work were in jeopardy. I am frustrated by the other recent events in my life-my home was burglarized, and my dishwasher, refrigerator, and garbage disposal all decided to quit. However, in the grand scheme of things these are not permanent and are more of an annoyance.
I am back to being able to go for walks and look forward to being able to ride my bicycle again once the dizziness subsides. I long to be able to wake up one day without a headache, but know that time will also come. I am thankful that I am able to write this blog and enjoy the company of family and friends. Life IS good, and things will get better. :)
Here's a pic from last year's Thanksgiving ride (we usually ride just over 50 miles and stop at Starbucks half way for a treat)-couldn't do it this year but next year I'll be back!