Friday, December 23, 2011
My husband and I have been separated for 3 years, 6 months and 23 days. Yes, I kept count. Not counting the separation, we would be married for 15 years this coming March.
It has taken me to this year to finally accept that it is okay to still love my husband but to move on with my life in every way. Divorce is sometimes necessary. I struggled with that because of my religious beliefs.
This summer I decided that I need to make some changes in my overall health and life so that I would not waste another 12 months crying over the same spilled milk. I started a side job to earn extra money, I picked up a new hobby and I started going to concerts and shows and speaking engagements...something I almost never did in the past. It was not until September that I decided to seriously attack my weight issues.
I don't think many people took me seriously at first, but by November you could start to see the results. My husband never made a comment, but I later found out he was definitely watching.
One month later...we have been to dinner, he has bought me gifts and we are talking about the possibility of reconciliation. NOT because of the weight loss (only 30 pounds so far and I still have 95 to go!) but more because of my change of heart and mind. I am more confident, more assertive and definitely have more desire to be the best me I can be. I think that intrigues him.
Fools rush in and I am no fool. We are taking things one step at a time, but I am so happy that a few walks several times a week and a positive attitude has reset the course of my whole life. I wonder if anyone else has experienced anything like this...
I will keep you posted on my progress in both areas of my life!