Dear Self In 10 Weeks
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
As we're starting the 10 week winter challenge, I wanted to take a few minutes to talk to myself. ;)
We haven't had much luck with the weight loss lately, have we? Sadly, the more proficient I'm getting at racing, the more I'm also becoming unhappy with pictures, and the mirror. It's time to face facts that I'm getting close to the point where weight is going to start negatively impacting what I can accomplish. They say that 20-25 lbs can add 1 minute per mile on running times - I would be running so much faster if I could take off what I want!
However, it's hard to do that. For some, the immediate satisfaction is the cookie, the beer, skipping workouts, that sort of unhealthy behavior. I may occasionally indulge in a cookie, and I may have a few too many drinks every once in a while, but racing is really my guilty, feel good, immediate pleasure. It's so much fun to toe the starting line as often as possible, and now that my husband does it with me, we've done almost a race every 2 weeks on average this year.
The problem is - if I'm caught up in that training, it's hard to let my body recover the way it needs (and not to mention my mind), and to really focus on the healthy eating I need to do. And even if you're feeling good and riding the adrenaline high, you eventually crash. My last few runs before I decided to take a break were just DISASTROUS. I rarely can go a few days without workouts before I go crazy, and I've been eager to relax for almost 2 weeks now.
Self in 10 weeks, you're either about to do your first marathon on Feb 19th, or you've decided to cast that aside to work on weight loss and recovery. Know that if you're not running it, don't feel as if it's a failure. There is no need to drag yourself through your first marathon exhausted, tired, injured, and not feeling it. It should be an amazing, exciting experience. And remember that this was just something to keep you amused during off season for tri.
I know you're thinking that if you don't do this, how are you going to do an ironman someday? Self - if you want to, you will. This may just not be the year. There is no shame in doing 4 half marathons this winter instead of 3 and a full, or even skipping the last one entirely. If you need the time to mentally and physically recover, it's ok.
However, losing weight is non-negotiable. You know that's a step you need to take before you really start pushing the distances (you just hoped that you could do it while you train - it may just not work that way). You're currently working with a nutritionist (albeit, she is just as stumped as you) and have a plan. One grain per day. 1600 calories per day. Considering how hard it was to follow the first week, it should definitely work. Your goal is to end the challenge in the 160s. That should be about .5 lbs per week if it's steady.
Good luck, you can do it!