Tuesday, December 20, 2011
I have such good intentions.... Then poof, they're all gone. Just like that. I stopped smoking, ate really healthy, lost 4 pounds, exercised daily and felt amazing for 3 months. I thought I had cracked it...then one crazy night out with a friend and all of that has gone down the toilet. I'm SO frustrated with my self, as I know I can do it and that I felt great and so positive and productive, but I can't seem to do it again.
I tried writing out my goals again, planning meals, and scheduling exercise, getting lots of sleep, but I still eat all the chocolates at work, feel lazy to work out, smoke when I'm out with friends, stay up too late. I just can't find the will power/motivation to do it again. I still log on to SP and try to find the answer, but I just get even more frustrated as I keep falling back into an unhealthy, unproductive life style.
I'm going out with my friends tonight, so I'm going to take one day (evening) at a time. If I can go out, and not drink and smoke, that will be my first big goal.
Wish me strength of mind. And how happy and in control will I feel tomorrow if i haven't.... and still had a good time.