Monday, December 19, 2011
Well, I've been extremely busy, stressed, and emotional this last few days, and I've completely let it take over my weightloss journey. We are preparing to leave for a couple weeks to go home to Tennessee for Christmas, and every time we get ready to make that trip, I start getting stressed out about my house not being in tip-top shape before we leave. So I start cleaning every crack & crevice, and if I don't get it all done, I will be annoyed until we get home lol. It's my OCD kicking in high gear I guess :/
But then, I also have been super emotional over the loss of our baby back in September. It's been almost 4 months, but I cant help but think that we would be decorating a nursery, buying baby items & furniture, and planning my shower, then the baby would be here mid-March. Things were supposed to be so much different right now, and it's nothing like I was expecting a few months ago. Ahhhh! So much stress...& it's only going to get worse when we get together with family & they are all being awkward.
So due to all of that, my hubby has been trying to cheer me up, and this weekend has been filled with Starbucks, hamburgers, greasy fries, and cookies lol. I've tried to eat somewhat healthy during this sabotage, but my efforts became kind of obsolete when I binged on 10 cookies that have 120 calories for 2 :/
I guess what it all boils down to is that I thought I pretty much had everything under control. & I have come to realize that I do not. It's going to take some time, and I have to realize that I'm going to have ups and downs...I just hope I am more often on the upside. Prayers would be appreciated :)