Monday, December 19, 2011
In my last blog I talked about my frustration with plateaus and my success with maintenance. Today’s entry is about so many things… roller coasters, urge to run, fitting in smaller clothes, and breaking plateaus.
I FIT IN THEM AGAIN! I love roller coasters and it has been over 10 years since I last road on one because I didn’t fit. Well I went to Knott’s Berry Farm with my best friend Rachel on Sunday (12/11) and got on all the coasters. I was absolutely humiliated when I tried to ride one and couldn’t get the belt to close, and let me say that I was feeling all sorts of anxiety while waiting in line on the first one I tried (Ghost Rider). To top it off while waiting I watched a couple get off the ride because they didn’t fit and my heart hurt for them and all the pain I felt when I was just like them came flooding back. Then it was my turn to get on and belted in and it FIT!! I was so happy, proud, and relieved. I am not the fat girl anymore.
Urge to Run
Yeah I said it…urge to run. I was walking around the job site and I had this urge to run. Where the hell did that come from? And then I remembered when I was a kid, I ran because it was fun, I ran because we could, I ran just to run and I wanted to RUN! It was strange of course, because fat girls don’t run and they don’t WANT to run. So when I was at Knott’s Berry Farm I talked to Rachel about these urges (LOL) and she said “well let’s run” and we did. We ran for about a block and a half I would guess and it was great. I was out of breath and sweating but it was great. I am not the fat girl anymore.
Fitting in Smaller Clothes
It was cold on Sunday and all my jackets are too big. I swim in most of my cloths these days (not that I am complaining) and nothing matches. I have a older ski jacket that belonged to my Mom, so I was desperate. The jacket that I always ware is a men’s XXL and this one is a women’s XL. Guess what? It fit like a glove. I was shocked. No way did this XL jacket fit. I zipped it up and yup, it fit. I am not the fat girl anymore.
As I said before I have been in a plateau for a few months and it has been frustrating and discouraging in a way, and although I maintained my success, I am not done yet. I think my old behaviors were creeping back up and I was getting too brave. I was eating more and eating faster and when I did I paid for it. So I went back to the doctor and got another fill. Now my doctor and I thought that maybe I didn’t need the fill six weeks back, but on December 12th I asked for one. I was nervous about it, but it has been the best thing for me. Again, the band has done what I needed it to do SLOW ME DOWN. I have broken the plateau and started to loose again, so far I have lost 6 pounds and that makes me 3 pounds from loosing a total of 100 POUNDS! I am not the fat girl anymore.
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