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Sunday, December 18, 2011

talk about being MIA for awhile. Life can really get ahead of you sometimes. Each day you tell yourself the same thing about this being the day you will get on track, then another day goes by, then a week, then months. Before you know it you've gained 10 pounds and worse off than where you started from.

That's exactly how I have been feeling the past 4 months or so. I had a really rough summer experiencing a lot of personal struggles that I never thought I would have to deal with. I've slowly began to move past the hardships and get back on track with my normal routine of life. Now that I am I have realized I have fallen into a pit of unhealthy habits. I've started to pick up eating habits I never had before. I always hated fast food and now late at night I will go out an pick up a burger and fries. What the heck, why am I doing this? Ok maybe it is all the stress I have been dealing with but I've been stressed out before and I haven't resorted to gorging on fast food.

When I realized how out of control my unhealthy habits were getting was this past weekend. I was in the fitting room. Which I normally don't hate because I love shopping for clothes, however I was in the dreaded room with the three mirrors that show every side of you. I was thinking what the hell of course I'm in the room with the lovely fat mirror's to tell me how rolly polly I truly am. They surely didn't lie. I'm not obese but I am overweight and I'm not ok with it. My experience with this dreaded mirror really hit me, and maybe there was a reason why I was in that room instead of the others. I needed that wake up call to realize the path that I am headed towards.

As I stood there looking at myself I knew I had to change something. I decided that I had to take a photo of myself so I could have a constant reminder of the road I'm headed down if I don't change. This was not something that I wanted to do, it was something I needed to do. It wasn't easy to take that snapshot, it's embarrassing and painful to come to the realization that you have let yourself get to that point.

One day I want to conquer the world and I can't do it if I don't start making some changes. I know I have the resources to do this, its just taking those steps to go forth and do it. One day at a time.

I hope everyone is succeeding in their journey to a healthier life. Good luck everyone!

-Allie emoticon
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  • SKY214
    First of all welcome back. I've missed reading your blogs.

    Try not to be so hard on your self. Sometimes life is complicated and in order to deal with it we some times do things that we would not ordinarily do. This is not something that you can't do something about. You've taken the first step.
    Feel good about that and move on. Life is too short.

    Good luck!
    2279 days ago
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