Sunday, March 11, 2007
I am so frustrated. I'm an emotional eater and so in times of stress, I go straight for the food. I'll do really well for a few days and then blow it in one day. My weight keeps changing from about 152 to 150 and I'll never get any lower if I keep up this bingeful eating pattern.
I'm also really frustrated to know that just last August I had pretty much reached my goal weight of 140 lbs. I was there and I gained it all back! Now I'm stuck. I have no motivation to exercise or eat right. Actually, Friday was my binge day and I've eaten within my calorie range yesterday and today. I just have to keep going.
I guess I'm mostly stressed because of my son, D, who we're now seeing a therapist for help for his issues due to his autism. We were only seeing a psychiatrist until we could find someone who specializes in therapy for kids on the autistm spectrum. We've just found out from this new therapist that the medication he's been taking may be causing a lot of problems with regards to his executive functions. So what he's been taking to level out his anger outbursts may be doing more harm than good. That is what we need to discuss with the psychiatrist next appointment.