Hey everyone. Sorry it's been so long. I take some classes at a local community college trying to finish my degree so between finals and my son getting the flu, fitness has kind have been pushed to the side. I've felt like crap for the last few weeks, eating chocolate and milkshakes and not exercising much at all. It's really sad to me how I played varsity soccer three years of high school and used to be able to run forever and yet I haven't exercised in weeks.

But this morning, I decided I was going to give up my first "sleep in" day in a while, as Marin had a sleepover with Nana last night and get up early to run with the sunrise. Needless to say, I woke up and it was raining. So I went back to sleep.

But when I finally actually got up (closer to 8:30) and decided to drag myself to my treadmill (I finally saved up to buy a used one a month or two ago). So I decided to try to run a mile after warming up, as I'm still trying to reduce my mile time since I like competitive things like that. But about half way through I just had to stop. I had gone about 5.5 minutes and about .66 miles and I felt like I was going to pass out. So I got off and just sat down. And I thought to myself, "I should feel good but instead I kind of feel like I want to die." But I realized that that's why I'm doing this.

There's a lot of hard things in my life. I got pregnant when I was 18. I'm a single mom, with a job barely over minimum wage and no degree so far. I'm single, I don't have time to be social. It's so tempting to just have a pity party and say, "My life sucks" but you know, that's not the way I've ever done things and I don't want to be that person.

So I got back on that damn treadmill. I found my neglected Couch to 5K plan next to the treadmill and I did the whole first workout. 25 minutes of intervals, 1 min run, 1.5 min walk. Not gonna lie, it sucked. But I realize that I'm finally doing something to make it suck less.

And after that, I worked out some more. Gain Fitness (website/app) is officially awesome. I looked for a 20 minute home workout with no equipment and it got me going.

I am one badass sweaty chick.

So I'm back. Feel free to comment...I really like to know if anyone is reading these.

love, Alexandra.

(sorry for all the language in this post. I don't usually talk like that but..you know :)