oh sparkpeople,

it has been too long. thanks so much for those of you who checked in on me (and friended me!) while I was MIA!! You are the reason spark is so amazing!!

At first, in August, I made excuses because I had just moved, was organizing life, trying to meet people, getting used to being in school again, and getting used to living at home with my dad after being an independent adult.

But now...4 months later, there's no excuse!! I've finally settled, made my friends, AM DONE WITH FIRST SEMESTER and I'm still where I started when I moved here!

I just went to the dr.'s office yesterday, and officially weigh in at 195. The last time I was in the dr's office was June 20th, officially 6mo ago, and I weighed in at 193. I'm 2 pounds heavier than 6 months ago, and I should be down 30 pounds! ahh!! I checked the weight tracker, and I should be 40 pounds down & at my goal weight by now according to that little red line :(

I can't believe how much time I've lost!! I'm definitely happy that I haven't gained more than 2 pounds, but I'm sad that I squandered all that time. I started this journey in Feb, and by June had lost 27 pounds. Since June I worked out consistently up until around November (go figure...), but since August I made good decisions about what I ate, but I haven't really cared how MUCH I ate.

Goodness! Okay, I have 2 months before my 1 year sparkiversary--so I AM BACK WITH A VENGEANCE!!! I need to get back into the daily habit of tracking and exercising...I let myself slip and stop exercising as much the past 1.5 months. (hence no fitness awards! :((( )

Commitment. Daily commitment. Because I'm worth it. I WILL see a change in that scale by February 15th. that's a promise to myself.