Believe in yourself - believe in your spark
Friday, December 16, 2011
I have to start out by saying that I didn't want to go to the gym tonight.
Last Saturday was my office Christmas party. I have to admit that I did great on not eating a lot, and I drank water and juice the whole night. The thing I did do is dance. I love to dance and I really don't care who is watching. Every time I sat down, I got pulled on to the floor by someone else.
Sunday - my left knee was bothering me. I mean, it was swollen and SORE! I iced it and had trouble walking on it. The cool thing was that the rest of me was just fine. I didn't feel sore or tired at all.
Since my knee was giving me fits - I stayed out of the gym till Wednesday. I did my cardio that day and thought I was going to have to cut it back - but alas, I felt fine and did my whole work out.
Yesterday was weights. Those kind of kicked my butt, but I got through it.
Today - more cardio. Like I said, I didn't want to go. My knee was sore - but nothing that said "Go to the ER". Despite it all, I had put my gym bag in the car, so I figured I might as well. I started on the treadmill. After 10 min, I realized I couldn't do that today. (It's usually 20 min).
In order to make up my time, I added 5 minutes to my elliptical. I started out fine but by the time 15 minutes had gone by, I wanted to stop. (I was doing 25 min).
I said NO. I can do this. I reached within my self, found my spark and kept going.
At 20 minutes I was really wanting to quit, but now I only have 5 minutes. "Keep going, you can do this." I kept repeating to myself. Pretty soon it was down to a minute, then 30 seconds, then I was done.
However, the story isn't over there. After the elliptical, I went to the exercise bike and punched up 25 minutes. I thought to myself "This is nuts" - but I did it anyway.
After 10 minutes I was back at that "I wanna quit and get off." I didn't though. I kept going. My leg was sore, my butt was sore, but I kept going.
At 15 minutes I was really pushing myself. I think I might have even expressing myself out loud. "Keep going. I can do this. I have the ability - just keep at it."
Finally at 20 minutes I hit my level where I could start my cool down. I was drenched, but I did it. I was a little wobbly when I got off the bike, but I squared my shoulders and walked away.
This was just a reinforcement to me as to what I could do. We can all just throw in the towel early. We can say "Nah, too hard. I can't do it." Well, I say "Bullpucky!" You ARE stronger than you think. The only person that keeps us from doing something is ourselves.
Find your inner strength. Find your Spark. You CAN do it - no matter what it is. One step at a time. One minute at a time. Just keep going. Then, when you are done, you can walk away and be proud. You can say "Ya, I did that. Look at ME! I kicked it to the curb!"