Thursday, December 15, 2011
I'm really good at noticing my patterns. I'm a pretty self-aware girl, have a good therapist, a strong community that will call me on my bs, and a good practice of checking myself before I wreck myself.
So, this is a pattern I've noticed: I notice a pattern, but then getting stuck and not knowing how to break it. I chalk it up to "just being who I am" and ignore it. And that is precisely when I stop taking care of myself.
I'm on break from school for a few weeks, which seems like the perfect time to try to break patterns, make new ones, etc. I'm going through the healthy recipes on Epicurious (I tend to like them more than the ones on Spark -- they're a little classier and don't use as many processed foods/fake foods), making a new cookbook, thinking about making this for dinner tonight:
Though I don't have feta or yeast (normally I would just make pita), so it will depend on if my honey will stop at the store on the way home from her meeting. If not, we'll have pasta with left over veggie-meat sauce. I'm trying to cook through some of the random things we've had in the fridge and the yves veggie ground was the first to go.
One thing that I've noticed is that when I'm on a "diet" I tend to stop eating whole foods and lean really heavily on processed foods. I realized, too, that as that happens the amount of waste I produce increases exponentially; more plastic packaging, more cans, etc. So, while I really don't want to give up my pudding cups, because I flipping love those and they make my honey eating ice cream that much easier, I am really going to try to recenter my shopping around the bulk bins and produce, which I think will be good for my body and the earth.