Thursday, December 15, 2011
I joined SparkPeople in May 2008. I proceeded to gain a bunch of weight and then slowly dropped it with lots of plateaus. I'm currently at my lowest weight since joining SP - that is, it's lower than it was when I joined!
I have had a lot of changes since I joined SP - not necessarily because of my membership here, but just general life changes. I've moved more than once (and one of those moves was to a whole new province) and I got married. I discovered running. I've had guinea pigs die and adopted other guinea pigs. I've learned to enjoy some types of exercise. I've learned a lot about myself and what I need in order to be successful. I've even been able to drink more water than other drinks a lot of the time.
I think one of the coolest things about SparkPeople is the emphasis on finding things about yourself and your current life to enjoy and be happy with, and the focus on making small changes over time instead of suddenly changing everything and expecting it to last. Every step toward your ultimate goal is something to be celebrated, and that is really kind of wonderful.
Here's my update about Wednesday, which I posted to my BSG team chat thread:
My doctor's appointment was okay. The cyst was a little bigger, so I am on the wait list for surgery. It could be anywhere from three to six months until I get in. At least it's not really a huge deal. The only real complication that could come up is if it makes the ovary twist, since that can cut off the blood supply and if you don't get it looked after immediately you could lose the ovary.
After the doctor, I went to the mall and got my hair trimmed. It was nice to have someone else brushing it out and washing it for a change! The guy at the next station had to fix a little girl's hair; she was about three and had cut her shoulder-length hair to just below her ear on the left side. When my trim was finished, that guy came and helped my stylist blow dry my hair. (My hair is nearly long enough to sit on, and it's pretty thick.) The stylist put Moroccan oil in my hair to help keep the ends healthy since they don't get any natural oils on them (too far away). She tried to sell it to me at the salon, but I try to avoid buying product at salons since it's so expensive. I bought a bottle of Argan Oil (same thing) at the grocery store later since the brand I use for shampoo and conditioner sells it. It was still expensive, but at least it's a brand I trust!
I found some wool socks at Zellers. I'm going to wear them for running in this winter. Cotton really won't cut it. Then I went to Tim Horton's and had lunch and did some work on a report I need to have finished editing later this afternoon while I waited for my mom to arrive.
I spent the afternoon with my mom, who was in town to pick up her piano lid. The movers smushed it when they moved from Thunder Bay to Prince Albert. (When they moved from Rocky Mountain House to Thunder Bay back in 1999, the movers broke the pedals off her other piano. Movers don't know how to move pianos. That is the take-away lesson here. Never trust them.) We talked for a while at Tim Horton's, and I showed her the baby stuff, and then we went and got the piano lid. Then we headed to a music store that sells mostly piano-centric music and goodies (though they do have a mouse pad with clarinets on it, and will order in any other music I want, and there's a great selection of theory and history books). Then to Michaels for the skinny ribbon I need to finish the baby stuff, as well as a new bag of polyfil since I used up what I had making knitted plot bunnies for NaNoWriMo. We also stopped at PetSmart and I got a bag of timothy hay because Batman was running low. Then Mom dropped me off back at my truck and I went to Safeway for a few groceries before I headed back to J's work to get him.
J and I got home and I had a call from the mom of the young woman I do community access with, confirming for my shift. I dished up dinner (leftover mashed potatoes that I heated in the microwave and a pork loin roast that I'd put in the Crock Pot before we left that morning) and ate, then headed back to town to do my shift. We went to a dollar store and she found a pretty bracelet for the girl she has for Secret Santa at her school, and I found two lovely hair sticks that I'm going to choose between for Saturday (J's work party).
J and I watched two episodes of Castle before we went to bed last night. We're catching up (quickly) and will start watching the new episodes each week probably in January or something. We don't have TV service - we'd have to pay for satellite if we did that, because cable doesn't do rural - so we find our shows online. We watch Sanctuary, Bones, The Big Bang Theory, and Fringe every week. We've also been watching Dr Who (starting at the beginning, so really old first doctor episodes still) and Law & Order (we're in season four or five now, I think, and we've seen all of them before anyway). We also recently watched all of Futurama! I like to watch Being Erica (a show on CBC that is just amazing) but I have to find times when J isn't around to watch that because he makes fun of it and isn't interested in it at all.
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Day 61 Weigh in/Decide what you can improve from Phase 6 (Monday, December 12, 2011)
I weighed in at 228 lbs.
I wound up eating candy last weekend; goal for this phase is to not eat any candy at all once what I've got is gone.
I am also going to aim for a minimum of three runs.
Day 62 Ask the team for help with something you have found to be difficult (Tuesday, December 13, 2011)
My biggest difficulty is following my plans and making things happen when I want them to. I have a basic schedule for my day, and I make a list of everything I want to do during each period of every day, and it just doesn't happen sometimes, even though I really want it to and I try my best. Any tips for this would be great.
Day 63 Identify and eliminate a low self-esteem belief (Wednesday, December 14, 2011)
I saw myself in the full-length mirror at the hair salon, and I again felt like I was huge and frumpy. Here's what I need to remember about that sort of thing:
1. I am tall. 5'9" isn't the tallest ever, but I am taller than a lot of women, and I am taller than the stylist who trimmed my hair.
2. I am large. Even if I make my goal weight, I will be large. I have a medium to large frame, which means that I am nothing resembling "petite" and never will be. My stylist, on the other hand, was a petite woman.
3. I like to wear comfortable clothes. Sometimes what's comfortable isn't the most flattering or trendy, and sometimes what's trendy is totally unflattering for someone my size/height/colouring/weight. Part of a stylist's job is to dress in trendy, flattering clothes so they can help to sell the image that "you, too, can look this awesome if you get your hair done here!"
4. My hair is wicked long, and I like it that way. I try to take care of it, and sometimes that job gets away from me a little bit, but long hair is really fun and cool and the only impact it should really have on my life is how much time I spend on styling it each day and the compliments and comments I get about it. My stylist thought my hair was amazing, and said herself that she will never have hair as long as mine, and she said it in a way that implied that she would like to have really long hair.
Short version: I am larger than a lot of people and always will be, no matter what - this is okay, because it's how I was made; while my clothing choices are not always the most flattering, at least I'm comfortable; and long hair is awesome and people wish they had hair like mine. These things are part of what makes me who I am, and the only thing that I should even THINK about changing is my wardrobe. (As long as I don't sacrifice comfort in favour of image.)
Day 64 Go to bed early (Thursday, December 15, 2011)
I will do my best on this and report back on it tomorrow.
Day 65 Post something inspirational (Quote, photo, song lyrics)
Day 66 Drink an extra 8 ounces of water
Day 67 Try a new healthy food
Day 68 Identify something you like about your body
Day 69 Review food and fitness logs to be sure you're logging accurately
Day 70 Examine phase 7 victories