Devastation or Sabotage ?
Thursday, December 15, 2011
I tried on my wedding dress yesterday and it didn't fit, i have 4 months to get into it and i am terrified that i won't so it, i didn't realize how much weight i had really gained. When i met Jason i weighed 95lbs and i am at 134 now, that's a huge difference, i know some of it wont go away because i was very sickly looking and i had a child so some of my areas are not going to go back to the way they were. i would be happy if i can be 115 again, i looked and felt great then, which was my per-pregnancy weight.
I was feeling very good about things and just in a minute of trying that dress on made me feel extremely depressed again.
I NEED some encouragement right now and i need and outlet.
I need a punching bag. lol
Should I have tried it on? did it motivate me or push me back?