Tuesday, December 13, 2011
I have been sitting here and thinking about the mere act of eating for hunger. Just thinking about how all of us got ourselves here. Why, aren't we all rational,thinking human beings with above average intelligence ? I seem to think we are. Then where did we all fall off the wagon ? Where did food gain so much control over us that we seemed to have lost that power of rational thinking. Just the fact that food made us lose our power of rational thinking goes to say that it has power over us. Food has definitely had power over me. I am now trying to figure out how I can divest it of this power.
I think the reason I am here today trying to lose weight is because I have spent my whole life being petrified of hunger. This thought has never occurred to me before. Its just struck me that I am seriously,seriously afraid of hunger. Scared as if my own hunger was going to eat me up. Scared as if the whole world would come crashing down because I was hungry. I've spent my whole life stuffing my face because 'what if ' I got hungry? What if the universe collapsed if I got hungry ? Didn't I ever realize that many people had been hungry before me ? What if I really did get hungry ? It never once occurred to me once that ..Geez... then what ? Geez...then nothing !!
The penny has finally dropped.What is the worst that will happen if I get a little physically hungry ? Nothing will happen if I get a little hungry. In fact I think the only times I really do lose weight are when I am physically hungry. I think hunger is now going to be an integral part of my weight loss journey. I've heard it said one too many time..."Don't let yourself get hungry !"..I'm sorry but it just doesn't work for me. Hunger is what shrinks my stomach. Hunger is what keeps me from stuffing my face. I like the feeling of hunger. Its a nice, light feeling to feel the hunger. By the way, I haven't felt real hunger in years. Ive almost forgotten what real hunger feels like. So now I am going to kick 'hunger' in its own face and not worry about it so much. I'm going to stop letting it have any power over me anymore. I am so ready to put hunger in its place...and it'd better stay there too.