Thursday, December 08, 2011
I use to think "I enjoy food, it tastes so good". Now that I have been thinking about it, I never really tasted the food as usually I was mindlessly eating away.
My mind was on everything but the food I was eating. I wasn't aware when I became full and would keep shoving food down. That isn't enjoyment -- that is self abuse.
Then I started to eat with awareness and noticed I mostly tasted sugar or salt. Most foods tasted quite similar. I now use very little salt and am almost sugar free. I now enjoy the different tastes and textures of food. Once I am satisfied, my enjoyment level is practically gone. Why would I keep eating and think I enjoyed self-abuse?
What I enjoyed was immediate gratification, the power to do what I wanted to at the moment.
I now use my power differently and in a more empowering way. How one uses their power is their choice. When I say "I can't", it is just an excuse to do what I want.
Whether you can or can't, you are right.